Ning

Destiny

lagginglikeamofo (1:25:17 AM): is this easier than texting?
sllybilygoat89 (1:26:11 AM): I don't care im bored and horny walking home it doesn't matter
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:26 AM): wtffff.
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:28 AM): haha
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:35 AM): where are you walking home from?
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:47 AM): and why do you always end up texting me when you're horny?
lagginglikeamofo (1:26:59 AM): It's a constant state for you, haha
sllybilygoat89 (1:27:18 AM): Is that a problem for you one
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:29 AM): Nope.
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:41 AM): It's entertaining.
sllybilygoat89 (1:27:48 AM): And secnd im walking home from state
lagginglikeamofo (1:27:57 AM): ooh
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:09 AM): I have a suspicion that he has a gf
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:15 AM): It's not confirmed
sllybilygoat89 (1:28:24 AM): And wouldn't you want someone who is akways horny cause I know you like fucking
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:32 AM): Yeah.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:33 AM): I do.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:35 AM): But uh
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:42 AM): That doesn't help me.
lagginglikeamofo (1:28:56 AM): You and I might be horny little kinks, but we operate as friends.
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:00 AM): So how does that benefit me?
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:02 AM): Haha.
sllybilygoat89 (1:29:41 AM): To bad we didn't fuck more offten then that might be help
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:46 AM): Uhhhhhh
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:48 AM): Noooooo.
lagginglikeamofo (1:29:53 AM): Because you have a girlfriend.
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:02 AM): And we tried that twice, it didn't work out very well.
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:15 AM): =P
sllybilygoat89 (1:30:45 AM): What do you mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:30:52 AM): You know what I mean.
sllybilygoat89 (1:31:18 AM): No explain
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:35 AM): Well Layne is your gf
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:42 AM): I'm pretty sure she wouldn't want us fucking
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:52 AM): secondly, when we DID try to fuck before
sllybilygoat89 (1:31:59 AM): Not much longer
lagginglikeamofo (1:31:59 AM): it wasn't much of anything.
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:04 AM): WTF.
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:07 AM): what do you mean?
sllybilygoat89 (1:32:36 AM): Well im about to break up with her
lagginglikeamofo (1:32:43 AM): Why is that?
sllybilygoat89 (1:32:45 AM): That's what I mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:42 AM): Like, why?
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:48 AM): are you sick of her?
lagginglikeamofo (1:33:51 AM): is she bad at sex?
sllybilygoat89 (1:33:56 AM): Because it isn't working out and plus I might be leaving soon
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:01 AM): ah.
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:11 AM): well didn't I try to warn you about that ahead of time?
sllybilygoat89 (1:34:15 AM): And she wouldn't stay with me when I leave
lagginglikeamofo (1:34:29 AM): you never listen to me, sir.
sllybilygoat89 (1:35:35 AM): And sex is ok but not amazing or hell I just wanna fuck and she isn't horny enough fo me ahahha
lagginglikeamofo (1:35:56 AM): LOL.
lagginglikeamofo (1:35:58 AM): Really?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:03 AM): That's unfortunate.
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:15 AM): Are you drunk right now?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:23 AM): Just out of curiousity.
sllybilygoat89 (1:36:47 AM): Not anymore im walking home why?
lagginglikeamofo (1:36:58 AM): Because you rarely talk to me like this.
sllybilygoat89 (1:37:25 AM): What do you mean like this
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:02 AM): Well, you don't talk to me as much anymore.
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:13 AM): Plus you were being mean yesterday.
lagginglikeamofo (1:38:24 AM): Soooooo. I don't really know what to expect from you.
sllybilygoat89 (1:40:26 AM): sory I was trying to be real with you im sorry I came off as mean
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:17 AM): Be real? Ha. You sort of came off as condescending, and considering you and Jill had been in the same situation...
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:22 AM): but it's okay.
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:23 AM): But I will def say im really horny right now and im totally serious haha
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:27 AM): ha.
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:29 AM): Yeah well
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:33 AM): that suckssss.
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:48 AM): What sucks
lagginglikeamofo (1:41:54 AM): that you're horny!
sllybilygoat89 (1:41:56 AM): Me being horny
sllybilygoat89 (1:42:07 AM): Or me being condisending
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:14 AM): you being horny.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:19 AM): sucks to be horny without having someone.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:30 AM): That's been me for the past two days, but tomorrow night I should be just fine.
lagginglikeamofo (1:42:31 AM):
sllybilygoat89 (1:42:47 AM): Yeah tell me about that I wanna fuck so bad
lagginglikeamofo (1:43:00 AM): well. you can fuck layne then break up with her.
lagginglikeamofo (1:43:04 AM): I'm so awful/.
sllybilygoat89 (1:44:23 AM): Yeah honestly I had better sex I really would much rather fuck you then her right now
sllybilygoat89 (1:44:54 AM): I mean she doesn't know what to do
sllybilygoat89 (1:45:11 AM): And I thnk we were both uncomfortable
lagginglikeamofo (1:45:29 AM): LOL.
lagginglikeamofo (1:45:34 AM): Oh you're sweet.
sllybilygoat89 (1:45:51 AM): If me and you hadn't of cared I think we would have fuucked the shit out of each other
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:04 AM): Yeahhhh...
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:12 AM): But you weren't into it at all.
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:13 AM): And how am I sweeet
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:14 AM): Clearly.
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:34 AM): I didn't think you were into it
sllybilygoat89 (1:46:40 AM): That's why
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:42 AM): wtf.
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:45 AM): Really?
lagginglikeamofo (1:46:50 AM): Did I give off that vibe?
sllybilygoat89 (1:47:38 AM): I thought we were just fucking cause of hormoness and plus I really wanted to ealy but I guess I read you wroong
sllybilygoat89 (1:47:43 AM): And yes you did
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:14 AM): Eh. I didn't really know how to get it started, to be quite honest.
sllybilygoat89 (1:48:20 AM): I kinda just wanted to fuck you all night to be honeat
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:27 AM): But insteadddd
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:29 AM): we talked.
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:33 AM): Hahaha.
lagginglikeamofo (1:48:57 AM): It was fucking awkward as hell.
lagginglikeamofo (1:49:12 AM): So I kept talking, cause that's what I do to diffuse awkwardness.
sllybilygoat89 (1:50:06 AM): So your telling me you wanted to fuck the entoire time but we didn't god damn it
lagginglikeamofo (1:50:29 AM): WELL... It would have been awkward me just mounting you out of no where
lagginglikeamofo (1:50:31 AM): I mean wtf.
lagginglikeamofo (1:51:05 AM): And like, I dunno... you were just chillin', so I was like, fuck. All this anticipation, expectations, and talk... and we're both fucking lame.
sllybilygoat89 (1:52:04 AM): I honestly would have have been okay I felt like that's all you wanted and then when we finally did I was so tired
lagginglikeamofo (1:53:07 AM): I was wondering about that.
sllybilygoat89 (1:54:35 AM): I honestly came over just wishing it would be a fuck fest and you would be a naughty dirty girl and it just didn't seem like that
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:16 AM): LOL. Well I'm like that after a couple of drinks or when I'm comfortable.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:24 AM): I mean, when Chris came to the door a couple weeks later
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:28 AM): I had dressed up for him
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:30 AM): hard core.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:35 AM): and we went at it like rabbits,.
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:42 AM): but uh, considering that it was hella awkward
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:46 AM): with you and I
lagginglikeamofo (1:55:51 AM): I didn't illicit that response.
sllybilygoat89 (1:57:13 AM): Well how bout we just agree ahead of time that we wanna fuck the shit out of each other and damn it dress up
sllybilygoat89 (1:57:26 AM): And let me have some foreplay hahaha
lagginglikeamofo (1:57:45 AM): You're assuming that I want to have sex with you again.
lagginglikeamofo (1:57:59 AM): Johnnn, I thought we determined that we're friends.
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:12 AM): I hate lying to Chris, it tears me apart on the inside.
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:35 AM): He nearly dropkicked me when he asked who I'd been with... something came up where I lied and said Ed
lagginglikeamofo (1:58:53 AM): and he was like, "Oh ok, I thought you were going to say John"
lagginglikeamofo (1:59:29 AM): I mean, I can't even talk to him normally now because of what I did to help you out.
sllybilygoat89 (1:59:43 AM): okay I understand but that doesn't mean I don't think about you sometimes
lagginglikeamofo (2:01:06 AM): why aren't you coming to my birthday, then?
sllybilygoat89 (2:02:52 AM): What are you talking about
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:06 AM): Uhhh you responded on facebook with a negative, dear.
sllybilygoat89 (2:03:13 AM): Do you want a b daay sexualy favor gift
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:50 AM): See, I don't really know who will be at my bday. I thought about inviting you, Chris, Brian, Ed, and Ray, and seeing who actually shows up
lagginglikeamofo (2:03:53 AM): and what goes down.
sllybilygoat89 (2:03:59 AM): And I should have said im not sure not no sorry
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:08 AM): I might have too many sexual gifts.
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:09 AM): =P
sllybilygoat89 (2:04:42 AM): What if your had five guys do you that night hahaha
lagginglikeamofo (2:04:58 AM): HA. that'd be massively slutty.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:03 AM): I'd rather not
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:22 AM): especially since Chris would strangle you alive if you showed.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:46 AM): Brian would just cry in a corner or some shit.
lagginglikeamofo (2:05:58 AM): or drunkenly try to fight you again.
lagginglikeamofo (2:06:01 AM): blahhh.
sllybilygoat89 (2:06:40 AM): What if no one found out lol
sllybilygoat89 (2:06:52 AM): And I told you chris was clean
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:00 AM): what?
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:03 AM): clean?
sllybilygoat89 (2:07:25 AM): Nevermind
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:29 AM): no what do you mean
lagginglikeamofo (2:07:32 AM): ???
sllybilygoat89 (2:07:54 AM): Don't worry about it lets go back to sex
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:11 AM): Have you ever had anything?
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:13 AM): I'm curious.
sllybilygoat89 (2:08:33 AM): No why do you ask
lagginglikeamofo (2:08:54 AM): eh. nothing.
sllybilygoat89 (2:09:12 AM): No tell me
lagginglikeamofo (2:09:37 AM): Only if we talk on the phone.
lagginglikeamofo (2:09:42 AM): if not, change the topic.

Destiny

Horribly boring day. I missed Chris today. Last year's memories were a bitch to deal with.

The girls and I are going to Ray's kickback tomorrow at his pad.

Only he and YJ will be there.

Operation make-him-squirm is about to commence.

I must say that I have this uncontrollable urge to hook up with him again.

But I want some straight answers first.

The dark question is...

If he has a girlfriend... will that stop me from doing things with him?

It's socially taboo to be the other woman. Then again, with the Ed scandal... it never really stopped me before. Key word though, it was a scandal. Meaning trouble. I really have an issue with relationships, commitment, and loyalty. It doesn't help that I'm a bastard child. But honestly, what do I get out of it? Other than probably wanting to be with him and never being able to have it. So maybe that's where the "let's just have fun" mindset enters.

Anyways. I think we're all going to play it cool, but throw in some quibbs about his hometown, his exes perhaps. I'll probably take him aside, and say this: "Before we go any further, I'd just like to know whether you're involved with someone or not." It's not threatening. It's not "fuck you cheater," and it's not "I'm ooberly obsessed with you and want your dick to be MINE, and mine only." Terrifying. I don't want to scare him. But I want him to realize that I'm smart, I'm not going to be lied to, and I work better off of honesty. If he is cheating, then be straight up with me about it, so we can decide where to go from there. Good Destiny says be his friend, and bitch at him for being a cum-guzzling-gutter-slut. Bad Destiny says do him anyways, use him for what he's worth, then tell the girl after we've hooked up a couple of times. Now if he denies any wrong doing, this is the tricky part... I have partial evidence. His myspace. I might say I've heard differently. I don't want to come off as intense creeper woman... "OH I WAS CREEPING ON MYSPACE THE OTHER DAY..." and my heart sank into my stomach when I saw your girl and you in a picture together. Mixture of guilt and disappointment.

I knew he was too good to be true. Sweet country boy, amazing body (6'1, toned), softest hair ever, sweet motorcycle, good job. OF COURSE THAT NUKKA IS TAKEN. Duh, Destiny.

I really wish things were as easy as they had been with Chris... straight out of high school, innocent, and inexperienced. Sigh.

I'm getting my nails done tomorrow. I need to figure out what I'm bringing to his place. He expects me to spend the night with him, I'm sure. His bed was so comfy. Like amazing, hahaha. I wonder how many chicks said the same thing to him. WHY ARE THE HOT ONES THE MOST EVIL!? Oh well. It'll all come to the forefront. Expecting and preparing for the worst. Ugh, work at 5. Blerggghhh.

OH AND BTW. Here's the letter I wrote to Chris, that little faggot. I texted him last night, asking if he had received his results yet, and he's like "Oh I'm sorry, you care now?" He does his best to aggravate me, and yet I try to remain cordial. His temper is so prone to volcanic erruptions, I think it best to keep him at a distance:

I'm not going to play this little game with you anymore. Withholding information about this isn't a way of getting back at me. So stop it.

You said you might have an STD. You chose the wrong time to talk about it with me last week, and I tried asking you to speak with me later.
As you always do...

You blamed me for the situation, threatened to punch me in the face, then expected me to talk civilly to you, when you never give me the same decency.

Consider that there are STDs that can be dormant in your system. Don't blame me for all of your sexual conquests, Chris. It goes both ways, you could have just as easily given me something.

I got tested on Tuesday, and I won't know for 10-14 days. I just wanted to see if you were okay and if you had sought treatment. If I didn't care about you Chris, you would never hear from or see me again. It's not like I enjoy getting whiplash from your mood swings, from your I love you's to the fuck you's, I try harder to be your friend than you ever have for me. That's fucked up, but whatever.

Don't bother responding to this if you're going to be sarcastic and angry.
I just wanted to know that you're healthy, I hope you are, I never want anything bad to happen to you. I'm still worried about the transplant, I sincerely hope that goes well. You're still in my thoughts.

I wish you the best,
Des
xoxo

Destiny

Souhhh.

Ray has a gf.

This would be my second time hooking up with a taken man, dammit.

Why must boys lie or evade the truth???

Gen's back tonight.

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Destiny

FUCK.

So Chris calls me today

Demanding who I've been sleeping with, and said that he might have an STD.

Our fucking drama never ends.

I'm getting tested Tuesday, I was going to go tomorrow, but my period is a fucking asshole...

I think it might have been John. Brian seems to be really loyal to me.

Unless it was dormant in his system from previous... excursions.

Either way he could have given it to me, or I gave it to him.

WOW. Like a typical SDSU girl.

... :(

Party Friday at Ray's.

Highlighter theme.

He's going to be wondering why I'm running away from him the whole time. Sigh.

Destiny

I just ordered this, haha. I don't want the long danglies cause I hear they snag on everything, plus it's not summer, who will see it? Though it has been hot and dry lately...

I am really moving on from this Chris thing. Instead of dwelling, I've kinda accepted that this is just the way he is, flawed and emotional. I'm focusing my energies on Ray now. I don't wanna give up on him. He's too hot. Omg. Like why is he not fucking a billion girls like right in front of me? He's epically... I need to shut up. I think part of the problem here psychologically is that I find him more attractive than myself, and then there's his whole being white thing that makes me uncomfortable. Plus he's a Republican. Hmm. Not good, not good at all.

I hope he doesn't think I'm just some easy party girl! I want more from him.

Tired. Short entry.

Destiny

So um.

This is going to be graphic.

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Today was kinda stupid.

Brian came and woke me up at 11.

I was sleeping, hadn't answered my phone.

So he took that as a sign to come over and see me.

Uh.

Wtf.

I MADE OUT WITH RAY LAST NIGHT AND YET HE STILL COMES BACK?

Ok. He apparently didn't remember me being with Ray.

How can anyone forget a creature that looks as good as Ray does? His height alone... he's like a fucking Viking. Anyways.

Brian came over, annoyed the fuck out of me for like, 2 hours. Then we hooked up... and it was probably an hour or longer of him pounding me, and to be honest, I was waiting for it to finish. I was swollen after. I'm still fucked up down there. AWESOME. He couldn't come. He didn't lose it, though.

The boy likes me a lot. He said a lot of stuff to me today. Ugh. How I anger and frustrate him, cause he can't have me. Sounds familiar, doesn't it?

Went to Cosmos, went to work. Fucking Robert yelled at me cause he's a soft dick and can't do shit on his own. Whateverrr.

The more I think about Ray, the more I think we'll just be friends. Or hook up buddies. Not much more. It makes me kinda sad. I told him I didn't even know his last name, he said he didn't know mine but it doesn't matter, he still wants me. UH. Yeah, Romeo. That's not too cool.

Over tonight. Sleeping.