Ning

(Trembling under your blanket)

Stayed over at cow's. We did like... nothing. Just went over to her place and at 11, we went to bed. What kinda sleepover is that? We didn't even PLAY. Reached her place at 10ish, bathed and slept! O_O!!?

Then math remedial today. Then went to buy coffee and candy at United Square then went home. I felt so strange today, I had to go home ;___;.

I feel so ROCKED. (stoned sounds drugged)
Pics below. I'm out of flickr sets. *tries hard to survive*

How cool is that?

edit
Yeah. I deleted all that chunk of shit i typed out again.

Thanks savie and delle. I don't know what I'd do without the both of you. Much love - I promise I will try.

This is my friggin SCREAM. *dies* I lost my camera's memory card. It's such a stupid story, you probably don't want to hear about it! Aye, but I'll tell you anyway XD. In photo shops, they have this STUPID machine thing that allows you to instantly print photos from your digital camera or cellie. And so you have to insert your memory card/stick/whatever into that STUPID machine. And then after printing... *goes into insane frenzy* I FORGOT TO REMOVE MY MEMORY CARD AND SO I LEFT IT IN THE FRIGGIN' MACHINE AND WHEN I REALISED, THE SHOP HAS ALREADY CLOSED. So yeah, either someone nice had given my memory card to the shop to keep *prays hard that it is so* or some IDIOT had taken it. *goes insane*

If it is of any consolation, I managed to get two pictures *scoffs*, which I printed out from that STUPID machine. First is a really cute picture of nicole and prem, the other is with all of us (where I crossed out my face :D) *mutters* Oh nevermind.

Well briefly, about today. We went to lunch with Ms Ratulangi cos Ms Rat wanted to bring Nicole out for lunch since she's leaving ): Then Nicole called us along. We had Indonesian food, and it's really really good, but I was really full though. And we had great chats over lunch. After that, Ms Ratulangi had to leave, and so we headed off to Topshop where we tried on clothes. I looked like a party slut, so nevermind. Then next we stoned at CCE, and drew weird cute characters, aye! Saw the Flying Dutchman, he looks fatter and older, but that's besides the point. We stoned for so long until some weird dude came to meet nicole, stalked them for a while then we went home.

After that went to Causeway Point with cow and she commented that I was seriously stoned. Ah yes, of course I am. Didn't do much there, we spent just an hour there. Then home. BLEH.

It was a fun day though, I prolly made it seem to boring. Bleh, but I am really stoned today and I didn't feel so well and all. Ms Ratulangi asked me why I'm still so sleepy. Hah.

Okay. BASICALLY I JUST LOST MY BLOODY MEMORY CARD

Because it's already 12th in Singapore.

Happy Sweet Sixteen Yue!

I love you Baitch-yue, no matter how unsexy you are.

Yue, CLICK for your sexy present. The novelty has prolly worn off, but nevermind.

phooey says: (Yue)
I HATE YOU
phooey says:
YOU TERRIBLE FRIEND
YOU NEGATIVE UNSEXY ASSHOLE


Yue's so mean *wipes tear*

And again

phooey says:
where should i link to?
phooey says:
XD
x { possessed and--------- playingDEAD} says: (ning)
NING :D
phooey says:
NO
phooey says:
ning is a bad friend

(And you ask me why I sleep so late)

Dominoes. I never understood them. Lay them standing with so much care. When you make them fall, beaming. Then build them up again and make them fall again again again.


CLICK FOR PICS FROM STONING DAY YESTERDAY

Thought of being random. So.

What do I say? I'm always the devil on the inside anyway, but no. I'm not as sexy as I say I am, but still sexier than Yue.

Local bloggers are pretty cool. Malaysian bloggers included. I won't say I know much of them or adore many, but they can be pretty... interesting. This post especially had left me giggling throughout. Funny, though. But nevermind. About Kennysia's post... uh well, I never really got how "Ang Mo" came about, and it never really made much sense to me. Oh, how ironic.

Went to view houses with my mom today (my dad's a property agent, so he's in a way, like our agent). I realised I haven't seen my dad for sometime. He saw me and was like "Eh yining, how come you become so thin." It didn't make sense though, I tried searching my memories to the last time I've seen him and noted it was only just yesterday, for a brief minute when he came back only because my brother was being insane beating us up again. *shrugs* And after months, I finally found the courage to ask him where he's living. Now he lives so far away, it seems at least half an hour away from where I live now. What he tells me still taunts me, sometimes it becomes like a threat, but to what? Nevermind.

Ah. I should be packing for the camp on Thursday and I'm thinking of the last things you'd be thinking of being to camp. I'm now on a major mp3 player revamp. Mmhmm I need music to survive me the camp. And I'm charging my batteries so I can take pictures during the camp too. And also thinking of the books I can bring (yeah ning you'll have so much time to read). Aye, why... WHY am I packing these for camp. I am pretty much looking forward to the camp though, it sounds like fun. At least aside from the 9 to 12 year old bunch, I don't like kids much, especially at camps, and especially when they might be sharing sleeping space. I'm oh so social :D

All this teenage angst. What the hell is real.

I realised that I really don't wish to go to the camp, I only look forward to like chatting with Samantha, but other than that I don't know whether or not I care about the camp. I used to love camps, hah now I'm just so indifferent and disinterested. Packing can be such a pain, when you care only about entertainment.

On a happier note, I've been insanely studying with Cownie at Starbucks yesterday and today. It has been serious studying (well aside from yesterday, when cow only wanted to whack me). Cow was like "dude, we're actually studying. We're not even... talking!" Ugh. Yoshinoya is a bad place, so is burger king. The best (or only) place to study and chill is Starbucks, except those parts when you friend grabs your book and blackmails you, so that you can get her chocolate powder... to save her the embarassment of going more than just several times.

I uploaded lots of pictures from my phone. I couldn't send all of them because they were sent through MMS, moolah shall die. And also because they were sent through MMS, they are rather tiny any low quality due to compression. I'm not going to bother to post the thumbnails. Yes, I'm... very very lazy.

Oh yep yeah. Am back from camp. Let me try make this snappy.

Aside from 10 mosquito bites on each arm and leg, I am not very physically dead.

Stupid kids. Well, I didn't enjoy the camp much because of the kids, they are a great pain. I found them really immature, even my 6-year-old sister is more mature than those 11-year-olds. I could just kill them, especially the time when we were to wait for our turn to the raft. I lost my temper and guess what, didn't work out. But nevermind. They can be pretty cute, but uh - annoying all the same. I just have this tendency to compare them to my siblings, who seem alot more independent and mature.

I really liked the camp instructors though, they're all really fun and cool. Especially Benedict, Jane and Rudy (sp?). Had it not been them, I'd probably enjoy the camp alot less. Tough to explain how they're cool but I've never had greater camp instructors than Benedict despite the number of camps I've attended. I say they're really great also because they had so much patience with the kids when I, on the other hand, had wanted to strangle them. Oh and instructor Rudy thought that Samantha and I were lesbian (in the joking manner of course).

And then food. The food was pretty good for typical camp food. I mean, we get gravy and pudding (mango, strawberry, lychee) for every meal, how cool is that? I loved the black pepper gravy :D

How was sleep then? *coughs* The first night, lights out was 10.30pm. How does anyone even sleep so early? I thought I was tired, so I told Samantha good night and lay down to sleep and a while later she was fast asleep while I was just tossing and turning. I gave up and started writing some prose thinger. After filling 2 pages, I stopped and tried to sleep again, and that was about 2am. And the night itself, in just 4 hours, I woke up thrice. 2.30am, 3am, 4.30am. Woah, it's such a pain with those immature guys storming into the girls' dorm (they ended up sleeping with those girls). The second night. I woke up thrice once more, 2.30am, 4.20am, 5.20am, for the stupidest reason - the rain. The rain was just really heavy, it was literally pouring. The first two occasions I wasn't aware there was rain, and I was just so pissed with the noise, I even thought it was some strange machine. It was only the last time I woke up that I realised it was raining. By then, I was shivering and chattering my teeth though I was already hugging myself.

And... I hate the older malay guys who attended the camp. Guess what? They beat another guy up, in bloody camp. After that, only because the more mature guy decided against tattling and retaliating, they continued bullying him. I was just plain upset about that. I hated the camp because of their presence.

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Enough said. I need my Starbucks. ;____;

Nicole already left... I miss her already. This clash of feelings, like not knowing what to say to her and all. Everything seems to have this surreal feeling. It's hard to come to terms with it at all. I LOVE YOU NICOLE.


CLICK FOR PICS FROM 19TH JUNE --- Sending Nicole off

I shan't ramble more. I'm feeling really stoned.
Wanting to sleep but I can't get to sleep. I've been having unreasonable disrupted sleep lately (not those at camp).

Oh dear!

I'm stuck in the study with...
GUESS WHAT
Rabid and hyper cow!
Mad cow disease sets in.

To all my online friends. Guess what cow thinks of your... names.
Chummie reminds her of a big yellow fishball... something like Pikachu, or some pokemon
I guess I now know why you didn't like me calling you chummie
Ally reminds her of chopsticks because of the double L.
No, she hasn't seen a pic of you, you skinny thing
Yue reminds her of moon.
OH I WONDER WHY!
Rellie reminds her of something she can't remember
Poor memory, yes. COFFEE :D:D:D:D:D

Staying over at cow's house sounds painful, yes? XD RABID COW CHARGING AT YOU. And now she's mooing.

CHUM TAKE THAT PIC OF ME OFF YOUR MYSPACE

RAHHHH

ROTF. The last post was 4-5 hours ago.

It's... about to be 5am. We are all bonkers. I've decided that I need to blog alot today because it's the last day of the June holidays. ;___; OH JOY.

12.30am Coffee is joy
1.30am Retardedness drives us insane. Chewy's nick was "Many small clouds form a white sky". And we laughed for at least 30 minutes about it. Honestly, people call the sky BLUE *pokes chewy* not... white! But I haven't idea what made us laugh so bad, our tummies were all hurting.
2.00am Inability to type. And I got a mosquito bite on my nose. xD This time is the start of the day when cow goes "HEY LETS DANCE!" XD ...
3.00am Connie was being a big cheat, being amused by the number of people online on her blog at that moment (it was in the range of 3-8 at different times) and so she refreshed like a million times to pull her own hits up (She says: no. Just a hundred)
4.00am We thought it was 1am :D
4.50am Uncontrollable laughter HONESTLY. For the strangest reasons. Uh yes, cow chased me out the room cause so I can fart without disturbing her mental state. We were doing E and A maths. Cow's equation was... 6 = 6. For this moment of delirium, she wrote "(this is to confirm)" next to that equation. WTF!? XD Uh and cow bursting into laughter suddenly when she said "obtuse"... uh no idea why.

INSANITY. We'll hang on. Can see cow's losing her braincells already. She says that every A maths question anyone does lowers their IQ by 1. ....O_O

I LOVE CONNIEEEEE!!!!!!

<3<3<3<3<3<3!!!

... actually I'm not really cute.

But hey, isn't this just such a random time for a such a random set of pictures? Heh! I was just digging the cupboards, hoping to find some family pictures to hide in my "secret box" thing, but nevermind.



See, I didn't grow up quite a happy little girl.


Then you see where my mood swings came about.


And then comes insanity.


But yes, I can be quite a model *beams*


And I was also a loving sister, as I always am.


And I grew up grumpy. JOY!


Rotf alright alright. I admit, I was just trying to flood my blog before school starts. XD

I guess I'm posting this for archival purposes. I love this site.

http://www.colorgenics.com
Apparently it reveals your present mood from the color sequence you chooses. I find it really interesting.

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You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Very true. Thinking of last year... *shrugs*

You are full of stress at this time. It would seem that you are having more than your fair share of trials and tribulations and you are looking for a way out. You are not quite sure which way to go but the advice is - 'Stop trying so hard'.

Aye. Something is happening right now in the living room in my house, right now. Right now.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

I don't know, I've been pretty outgoing, haven't I?

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

Oh dear, that's very true. But I won't say more.

The tensions that you are trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond your control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get your own way, you are subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. You are trying to remedy the situation but the stress that you are experiencing is making the situation even worse. You feel so inadequate that you are not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve your tension.

Heh.

Okay.

1. Updated radioblog but the dimensions etc are all wrong. Screw it.
2. The first two days of school. Day one home at 8-9pm. Day two home at 10.30pm.
3. It was the opening of the AEP exhibition today and while I was initially assigned to be the door opener, my job was suddenly switched to be Mr Tan's personal assistant. *coughs* And so I was to stalk him and take pictures, and... stalk him. I was like "WHAT! You are changing my position!" and so I was like making weird faces while tagging along with him. The juniors are so easily humoured, I didn't even find that funny. Oh man. I was so tired having to run around taking pictures of both the Guest of Honour and Ms Tan, Mrs Matthews and Mrs Tan - who just happened to be in different groups. Crowd control at the exhibition was really strict. Mr Tan was really nice today though. He gave me VIP food heh! And he shall buy me a muffin.
4. I hate living here I tell you. I hate it.
5. We're doing animation for AEP. Apparently we're going to use flash. I say that had gotta be interesting!
6. There. Pics from I-forgot-when.

Today was a stonish day in school. Not going to elaborate. But we half of our chinese lesson talking abouts boobs. Laoshi is so friggin strange. She was like "Ta zuo wo pang bian, wo jiu mei tian kan lor" (She sits beside me, so I'll just look everyday)

Then we went to Thomson Plaza with Cow, Krystle and Alessa. And we saw a really cute little girl! :D She called me "Jiejie" and I kept making weird faces XD Connie was so OMG-SO-CUTE about the little girl. All was fine until connie told me there was this bunch of weirdos taking pictures of my hair. And I was like WTF!? Guys don't get turned on by hair (which ended up sounding really wrong) but that's besides the point. So I started claiming that they were actually trying to take pictures of connie :D BUT we were proved wrong. Because 5 minutes later, one of the guys approached KRYSTLE.
Guy: Wo de peng you yao ren shi ni!
Krystle: No...?
Guy: ERM. English or Chinese?
Krystle: No.
Guy: English, right? My friend wants to know you.
Krystle: Uh, no.
Guy: Something something
Krystle: This is not... uh... normal. UH lets go to orchard now!

I was like WHAT!? THIS IS NOT NORMAL?! Krystle, you're so bloody strange! I'm thinking that the guys got turned on by her singing and dancing randomly while doing chemistry. Then we ran to the toilet. We were so traumatized. Then we heard them from the toilet and I screamed "OMG d00ds, STOP STALKING US OMG ^%@#&%$!" And there was a woman in toilet who heard us O_o!

Then we headed to town. AND KRYSTLE SAW THIS SEXY MANGO BAG AND SHE TOOK IT, COS I HAD -NO- MOOLAH. I want moolah moolah ;___; Anyway, then I went to get chocolates with cow. And then I saw Jamie Yeo, she's tall. Okay, that's so mono. ORCHARD ROAD - has this whole BUNCH of hot white guys. Miserable, yeah.

I didn't want to go home, so I went to CCE to stone (and there was this guy who joked about this burnt muffin thingoo, nevermind) then after that I hopped over to Changi Airport and spent 35 minutes going back and forth on the skytrain. Then I roamed around and stoned. Then I went home. And I got home at 11pm.

And connie wants me to say that I'm talking to her now.