Ning

Sundays are bad. I could not bring myself to do work AT ALL.

First I just sat on my bed just staring into space thinking shit. Then I tried to do more math questions but I couldn't focus on a single sentence. Then I came on the net and surfed around and truly rotted. Then I decided that I need fresh air, perhaps it might spur me into doing work, so I made a trip to the bookshop to stock up my pencil case and I spent SG$8 doing so. That's... kinda bad X_X By then it was already 6. So I told myself that I'll start studying at 6.30pm but nooo I got no where and instead spent my time playing NEOPETS. God, I must be kidding myself. Woah. I should be sentenced to student-life-imprisonment or something.

Then I read on connie's blog that she wants a new house of wax layout. Though hers already looks all cool (It's like GREEN :D) I decided I really need to do something constructive, whether or not that's considered to be one. The layout didn't turn out too bad, just that the sidebar was puny and all, but hey I actually coded it this time!

There! MAJOR PLUGGAGE TO COWNIE
*waits for her to put up teh layout* ♥ <3

(I have... (♥) just done a quiz)

This is another one of ning's stay-up-tonight-OMG nights.



Click to see flickr set: Study Day 2nd May

Went to Connie's house to study again. We didn't do much besides a bit of math and maybe covering one and half chapters in bio. I feel really bad about this midyear mugging, I wish I can get myself to at least appear more serious but HECK we were like doing T-zone masks?! (*coughs* Just so you know, it was ENTIRELY connie's idea XD) *points to the top* Well, not that we didn't do any work but sighs. I feel very worried.

I must sound like some vainpot but I'm really feeling BLAH because I'm having breakouts. This late-night studying thing is getting to me. I cannot find my cream and I ran out of facial wash. I feel UGH. I want my aloe vera but at 3am, I dare not leave my room to get to the refrigerator! *splashes water on face non-stop*

And I had a bad hairday today. My hair was like POOOOOF!
Ahh! This is so not my day. *bimbo sigh*

*UPSET*

Anyway, LOVE to cow for her May'05 CD (: *coughs*
Lick my pussy like that. Just do it Just do it! *coughs* nevermind the song, it's kinda... wrong. Ya know *shakes head* I have no idea what sorta songs connie listens to! *coughs*

*hearts*

Rahlie made me an icon! Prozac Nation! I think it really delivers a very I don't know - real atmosphere! *loves*

*waits for rellie to blog*

Alessa! You are coming over right after the exams to watch prozac nation!

I'm in a total mess. I don't know what to do, and why I'm doing this and why I can't seem to stop. It's not like it's addictive or something but it is the first thing that comes to my mind when I really need relief like that. I want to stop, you know that?

(Social studies and Chinese Paper 1)

Anyway, I was only told that the AEP drawing and painting paper was postponed to next week. I was so frantic today, I just SPLAT-broke-down. I don't know how I'm going to produce that 5 pages of A3 prep work. Now I feel well, slightly 如释重负. I was planning to stay up, but I guess I don't need to now. I'm really going to get some good rest, and wake up tomorrow refreshed to revise Chemistry and E Math.

The exams are taking its toll on me. I am feeling stressed but I seem to be doing so little. I do sound vain, but I really look horrible. I look so poofy, gone and sunken. It's not as if I'm losing weight or anything, but I look just so aged, if you get what I mean.

(You know you like exam ranting, so here goes. :D
Rants include hatred for form teacher and classmate, oil.
And other ramblings about hatred.
Stay away if you please. *emo music plays*)

Alright i better be off to continue Chemistry and Maths before I start screaming at myself.

<3 to Connie who is probably in New York/Japan/Boston now.
<3 to everyone who put themselves through my ranting
<3 to everyone studying and GOOD LUCK!

Made an icon, instead of studying. Am insane. But it's not like I scouted for pictures or anything like that. I stole the picture from another one of my already-made blends.

I survived yesterday's e maths and chemistry. I hardly touched math, I mean, I can't even touch it or anything, I just didn't really practice. Alright, cutting things short, the papers were alright. I hope I can get at least a B4 for maths and C5 for Chemistry. I don't even know why I harbour these hopes. I'm just happy I survived the two exams though I didn't sleep a wink the night before. And I'm also glad I survived the two mosquito bites I got before the exam. At a point I almost jumped out of my seat from the itch.

(I was really bothered during the exam. Just really preoccupied over...[/break)

Then I went to town with tandiono, val and al. Alessa and val went to subway so tandiono and I headed off to Paragon to get chocolates, then we rotted at Pastamania. Then we roamed around. I SAW THIS BAG I MUST HAVE. I am so going to town after the exams. *disciplines self*

I think my class is a little optimistic. On the board was "5 days to freedom", it hardly made any sense to me. What sort of freedom, when a week later you'll get the horrible results, the scoldings, and during the holidays, it's more hardcore mugging. It's just such a drag. I'd be thinking hey look, 5 more days to survive. Ouch. Optimism can be so annoying and unrealistic.

OH SAVE ME.

(WARNING. SUPER NING IS FUCKING CURSING)

If you did not read the cut above, you will not scold me if I show you these. But if you have... uhh... *dies* Yep. I die.



Oh ning, you are so dead. So dead, so dead. You know that.
I'm like muttering... oh man oh man oh man oh mannnnnn ning!

This post is dedicated to all the insecure people out there! W00T w00T!

On the bus
Ning: Damn I feel insecure
Alessa: You always have security problems.
Somewhere else
Ning: Damn I feel insecure
Nicole: You've always had security problems!

And this insecurity thing is surfacing so much lately that it's getting pretty amusing.

About reading others' notes. I feel insecure reading others' notes because I have no idea how they make notes, what they miss out and whether or not I get all the details. So I like having my textbook, especially since I don't listen in class (I do, I just don't get what she's talking about)

About bus rides. I feel insecure if I sit on the outside seat on the bus, so I always have to sit by the window. And I prefer corners that way. On the train, I tend to go for the corner seats more. My computer hair has only 1 side of the handle left and it's making me feel insecure XD

About sleeping on my bed. This is crazy, so don't even laugh. Sometimes my dad isn't back home to sleep. And know I have bunk beds? The top bunk is mine and the bottom is his. And when he isn't home I'll sleep on the bottom bunk and I will stuff the top with lots of pillows and bolsters and everything, so it won't feel empty. I don't know! XD

About sitting in class. Classmates may have noticed that when I sit in class I have the tendency to take off my shoes (it doesn't stink... i hope XD) and sit cross-legged. That gives me security. No idea why!

There's so much more though, but you don't really want to know them... you'll think I'm some psycho, so ... hmm!

(Life is sexy with grey areas.
PHOTOS UNDER THE CUT)

YAY XD Studying is going... uh fine I guess ;___;

It's sunday. I posted alot and I'm posting more. I didn't use to be a mad blogger but whatever now.

(Under the cut: Things you probably don't want to see. It's not happy, it's long and totally senseless)

I have very strange friends! *coughalessacough*
I have very strange teachers! *coughmeessslowcough*

History was fine. It wasn't too tough, just that I was really rushing here and there and I didn't complete the paper. The rest thought it was fine, so cow doesn't have to worry :D

I LOVE MEES LOW. She gave us extension for AEP again! <3 I do feel kinda bad cos we're always unable to meet up to deadlines. But *sighs*, I was just rather frantic about bio and the drawing paper tomorrow. I haven't got a cool concept like Zeegu-chan. So the prints are due monday, marking day which it pretty relieving for me. I don't mind being frantic over aep after the exams. Heh. We were at the AEP studio and Alessa saw the strange side of mees low. XD

Then we went to Coffee Bean for "lunch" chatted about our sec 1 aep times and how the teachers loved us so. I mean hey, wil-kie thought we're cute and wanted to change classes with yit-tan to take us. But whatever, I'm kinda glad Mr yit-tan didn't. I won't say Mr Wil-kie is like horrible, but he's just really mean to his own students and really nice to the rest, strange. Yeah and we also talked about throwing slurry at the Red Cross girls, skipping maths (OMG NAOMI ONG OMG DAMN FUNNY) and chinese to chitchat at the studio. Then we talked about retarded childhood experiences. Tandiono's so strange! She fell off a horse and got hung on a tree branch. ROTF.

We spent around 2 hours chatting I think, when the next day is Biology. Hmm...

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I'm not a bloody book, so don't friggin try to read me. I may carry my emotions on my sleeves quite alot, but you have no idea what I'm thinking and you just assume everything about me. I'm not your wonderful literature book, you aren't psychic either, don't try read me. You have no idea.

EDIT#2
I LOVE ZEE
Thanks ZEE for the research! I'm so sorry for taking up your time when you could have done your research too! Ning loves you to bits and pieces. ZEE ish TEH LOVED. <3

The bio exam was a total mess!

What happens to brain cells when there is overhydration? (COW, WINK WINK) I was like "The cell will expand as excessive amounts of water will enter through the process of osmosis and the brain cell may even burst." It sounded so strange so I just left that answer blank! It was a 1-mark question anyway, so I figured... uh nevermind. Seriously, if they talked about other cells I may have at least written the answer down but I was thinking about brain cells all bursting and like swimming in the hypotonic solution, it sounded all so cartoonish. AHH! Other than that, the biology paper was alright. Now I do see what they meant by pure bio requiring more of application of knowledge, the essay questions were kinda tough but I really liked how the questions related to daily life and certain diseases and stuff like that. Then, I have to say that time I spent doing the TYS was kinda wasted. (COW, WINK WINK)

The art paper was retarded. It's a 3 hour paper. I had only 3 out of the 5 pieces of prep work I'm suppose to hand up. But oh nevermind. I kinda finished drawing everything in an hour, so I just really rotted around, doodling and all. Then at the 3rd hour, I decided to sleep, but then Ms Champion poked me and woke me up XD She was like "Are you cold? Do you want a sweater?" XD Cos I was literally hugging myself, it was uber cold there and I was directly under the fan and it's pouring outdoors. XD She asked if I wanted to changed seats and all O-o; heh, she's so nice! But I got rather startled getting poked.

Well I better go on for A maths and Literature. I do feel kinda relieved that after tomorrow, I'm left with just Chinese and Art history. But I don't exactly look forward to art history ;__; It's usually the paper that pulls me down but right now I really need it to pull me up because my prints kinda suck and my drawing was just plain messy.

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(ROTF. The *coughs* blogging services thang)

I feel sick now. I really do. That bloody Lit exam totally killed me. Hey look, I wrote 16 sides of the paper in 2 hours and 15 minutes. It's incredibly upsetting. Okay see. I forgot to tie one of my unseen prose pages, so it just left dangling (i'm not sure if I forgot or it dropped out). And while the Joy Luck paper came, the unseen and enemy of the people paper was being collected. So yes, after completing the Joy Luck paper, I had to pass everything else up and guess what. I realised that there's that 1 piece from the unseen that I did not pass up. I wanted to cry at that moment. That piece was double-sided and it was the core of the whole unseen essay. I didn't know what to do... I tied it together with my Joy Luck essay and handed it up. I don't know what to do now, I'm scared. 25 marks just flew away because I forgot to tie it. I don't know. And the essay question was incredibly broad, so I only finished 1/6 of what I wanted to say in that 45 minutes given, so I'm basically rather dead.

The A maths paper was a killer. It's not that I didn't have enough time to complete the paper, it's just that I didn't know what was going on cos I fell asleep last night before even revising and so I couldn't get anything in early morning. Basically, I think I left half the paper (as in the entire exam) blank. Then the lit exam was a greater killer. My hands are feeling wobbly, non-stop writing 16 pages (close to that at least since my words were rather large). Cow, there's nothing much I can say about the lit or a maths paper. A maths paper, I think an equal amount of everything came out. Lit paper, you should do alright if you listen in class.

I don't know whether I want to even give a damn about tomorrow's chinese paper anymore. I'm so tired of studying. 2 weeks continuously. And I haven't been able to stay up, the exams are really tiring and when I get home I find it so tough to start studying again. I'm pretty sure I'm failing the chinese paper anyway, I'm just studying so I won't fail too badly and have it pull my overall mark down. Cheng laoshi already said that the paper was tough and she expects people to fail it already, and I'm one of the worst students in her class. So surprise surprise there.

Yes, you heard me right!

Here I shall bombard you with pics and video once more. Mind you, they are taken like 2am... so they aren't the sanest or anything!

First off, the videos! Most of them are relatively small in size, except for the first.
MWAHAHAHA #1
That's a video of Benzley dancing, he's being insane, it's not too... Blahish XD You won't believe this, but he was dancing to Akon's "Mr Lonely"

MWAHAHAHA #2
This is hmmm both me and Benzley being uber strange :D <3

MWAHAHAHA #3
This is me swinging back and forth with my pillow! Benzley was being retarded *coughs*

MWAHAHAHA #4
This is my brother trying to scare me, it's NOT funny XD



A view of my desk from my bed

YAY Brother-sister LOVE

Chinese is bad for health!

I look evil here, that's why I kept the pic mwahaha

It looks fake, eh? XD He was making my face wet! -.-

Rellie's Christmas prezzie (da piggie) is still up there *coughs* XD

Alrightie, ning shuts up and resumes studying. I love Benzley, he's staying up with me while I study!

(This hell)

Had our Art History paper. It was a bloody long paper. 2 hours 15 minutes. I slept for 45 minutes after the paper and I was sleeping for short periods of time between questions. That's going to be the O level format and duration. You must be kidding me, it's like the same duration as the literature paper, except you write a quarter less.

After the paper, Zee and I headed to Cine and then met Nicole and then later her cactus. We kinda rotted around, we didn't exactly do much besides roaming around Action City and then later we were so bored that we just sat down and played a weird word game which turned out pretty wrong. Then I got what I went to town for, that bag. Later we went to Far East, where I became totally drained, I was falling asleep while walking. But that's besides the point. I got a belt. And the whole day, I spent the $50 my mom gave me. She was like blahish when I got home, talking about how the belt looks weird and how the bag is totally not worth $26. Aye *sighs*

My camera is screwing up, so webcammie to the rescue :D

The bag from the brand Voodoo Dolls. I really -heart- the design... though it's true $26 is really costly for just a tote.

Teh belt. It does look kinda strange, kinda tough to match too, but it looks so cool ;___;

On a lighter note. Lost is finally coming to Singapore! OMG :D
And being the complete loser I am, I designed my neopets user lookup and I actually really like it. So I sent it for the User Lookup spotlight contest thing. Heh, I really do like how my lookup looks, so hehehehehehehe!

COW I LOVE YOU HURRY COME BACK.

(It's going crazy)

Went out with cownie today! Went to Northpoint. We initially planned to watch movies and take neoprints to mark the end of exams for the both of us but the results really disturbed us and we felt pretty listless. So we went to Starbucks instead and rotted there for at least 2 hours. ;___; Aye, Mocha Frap is so sexy. Cow took so much chocolate powder! Well, I did too, but she took more! Then we roamed around and bought PACKETS of chips and ate them at a block's void deck but connie had to scare me about ghosts and stuff and we're just... having vivid imaginations. So... we ran away.

Then we were bored so we took the train from Yishun to Newton and then back. It was so amusing, the train just looked so clean and empty, we were just looking at each other and was like RUNNNN! And we ran into the empty carriage. It was tempting though, that bloody train. Then we spent our trip there drawing on each others' wallets with this cool new pen we got that writes on most surfaces, but we ended up killing our wallets. My cloth-based wallet died, no doubt. And we had to use a needle to try get connie's out, didn't work out. XD

Edit// I think I'm really trying to find something to bring myself just to focus. I don't know how much time I can spend alone without going insane.

Neopets. Pokemon. Now on to fanfics with my darling husband. Ah. I cannot stay still.

I really want to go to Starbucks/Coffee Club/Coffee Bean to just sit down. Half of me wants to go alone for the "peace" yet the other half knows I'm not the kind who can go anywhere alone without giving up and going home in the end.

(Under the CUT:: Note to alessa, screams about exams)

I brought my camera to school today but I didn't really use it because it didn't want to work! I only managed to take a mere video, but that's fine XD Cos the video is pretty funny! *coughs*


(screenshot)
CLICK TO VIEW VIDEO *coughs*

The 2/1 boogas were all so indifferent about the netball carnival... I don't know. The reason why I didn't join cheerleading is because of the people I will be working with and no, i cannot work with them. Aside from that, it's also because of the mere thought of me cheerleading makes me scoff in disgust. I am not going to wear that cheerleading costume, d00d.

EDIT// Today I was a psycho nutto. Today's little things...
1. Suicidal!?
I was sitting on the parapet on the 3rd floor of St Gabs for quite long and alessa said I looked seriously suicidal. Me: I... sit there all the time, exwifey. But I find it so nice sitting here!
2. My teacher doesn't love me
I asked laoshi "LAOSHIIIII NI AI WO MA?!?!" and she was like, with her obvious chinese accent, "Shuddup laa" XD
3. Violent exwifey me is
XD While waiting for our chinese oral, we were sitting on the parapet (except we were on the ground floor, so we look nothing suicidal), and then I wanted to teach exwifey more malay, wanted to drag her to the malay board where there are some simple phrases. But she fell down XD Alright *innocent eyes* I pulled her down and poor exwifey fell on her butt XD OOpsy exwifey!

you you you !!
i cant believe you did that to me!
you poop material!!



YOU DESTROYED MY DAY!!!!!
POOP YOU DESTROYED COW!!!

iu!g*^%i@hbk!~g*~^!*b@knky~!ty(inkljh*(unln*&!!

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