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Picasa is ... great! I got tons of my pics organised with it, though of course, I could've done it as well without the program but it has such a great interface! It has some cool features too. And you can also edit the images easily without photoshop. The reason why I like this is cos I hate to open photoshop all the time since it tends to crash. The editting isn't merely cropping, adding color tints etc, it's alot cooler! AND ALSO! There are special features *dances*

Here are some collages I made in Picasa. I took pictures I already had on my computer. And these collages are done in just a few seconds :D






ahhhh It's teh goodness!

Alright... just a quick entry. Found that I've been blogging alot lately. Tons of friends-only entries. I think I'm going whacked. But I'll cut down on the friends-only thingahs.

1. I wish I could be on the offensive
When people hurt me, I want to take revenge. It's so immature but it's just in me to bear grudges. I need to let go I know. I don't like getting myself tangled in friendship problems. So there, I have no more strength to take an initiative, to try make things better because I've already tried so hard. Things just go worse. I have no more strength to be on the offensive anymore and be a total bitch.

2. Subway is good
Subway's just great! <3 *melts* I was all hyper cos we decided to go to subway mwahaha! So I had my usual ham 6-inch and then later Evelyn wanted to buy cookies so we did! The cookies from subway are so chewy and good! ;___; ahhhh.... I'm going there at least once a week I tell you. It's not my fault it's so conveniently located few bus stops away from school.

3. Internet Addiction be gone
You know how they tend to say that your net life fades as your social life takes leaps? I don't know about that but I'm spending very little time on the net these days. Just online, really but not doing anything at the computer. Is that supposed to be good? Because it appears that my social life is wilting away as I'm growing more and more anti-social.

4. Nah, I'm not anti-social
I'm not anti-social at all, to be honest. I befriend juniors and seniors in minutes, I may not fit but I just make myself comfortable or I move. I'm constantly moving. So whatever.

5. Updates on my new seat
*coughs* I'm sitting next to Meiqi now right? It appears that she pays less attention than I do. Just because the bunch of us are more insane and FUN, the teachers think we don't pay attention. Today Meiqi asked, "How come you can answer all the questions without paying attention?" cos I was just facing head down on the table but still listening (just today during math).

Also, I think that Mr Teh is... impressed. I can't find another word, so leave it be for now. I mean, when he asks me questions I tend to just stare blankly and tell him I have no idea, whether or not I do. And he'll be like "XIAO JIEE ah! You not feeling well ah? Sleeping again. Aiyo! Must pay attention ah! Later parent-teacher night when your mom ask about you then I'll say: Aiyah this yining ah. Very good at sleeping ah! Listen okay? Where is your assignment?" But I don't really do that anymore. I don't want him to point that to the change of seats cos that'll just prove Ms Teow right. I detest her, ya know. She's nice but I detest her... RAH

6. April Fools'
I didn't see any April Fools jokes around school at all. Instead it's still the constantly drilling... YOUR MIDS ARE IN BLOODY 2 WEEKS. YOU STUDY OR YOU DIE. ULTIMATELY YOU ARE THE ONES TAKING THE TEST. I'M JUST HERE TO DO MY JOB AND TEACH YOU. YOU HAVE TO PUT IN ALL YOUR EFFORT AS WELL AND THAT IS THE BEST I CAN DO. Okay... you get the idea.

Oh of course my life sucks. My life sucks so much cos my friends' don't. My life sucks so much cos I can't rest at all. My life sucks because I take the same number of subjects as my friends. My life sucks cos I have no idea at all. My life sucks so much. OMG. My life sucks so much I want to die. My life sucks cos I failed my bloody test like my friends OMG. My life sucks I wish I hadn't had a life OMG.

My life sucks because I'm so bloody self-centered.

Geesh. Give me a bloody break. You're not the only one.

HAH! Taking a break from my studying so I took some pics minutes ago.

Okay. So there's this thing you need to know about me. I can never sit still on a spot. I either fall asleep (usually in class) or I lose concentration (that's in about 5-10 minutes). So I move about.

The following pictures are where I study. *coughs* I have been studying OMG. Anyway... note that these are all taken in the same room. Uh, that's my room. There are still more of my books and stuff (where I was studying earlier in the day) in my mom's room, brother's room, living room, kitchen, dining table etc. XD


That's where I currently am. My desk.


There's the bed's bottom bunk.
I cannot stay here when I'm staying up to study cos I'll just fall asleep.


That's... my printer. Not really where I study at all, but where I have my things left there at least


And of course, there's the upper bunk.
This is also where I cannot study when I'm staying up.


And there's a mattress on the floor that I really need because I need more places to study *scoffs*
Will fall asleep here too.

So there, I TOLD YOU I CANNOT SIT STILL!
Yes, those things are all there at the same time right now. I make a mess in the house just studying, much to my mom's displease. But oh nevermind! At least I'm studying!

And where do I study late at night? In my room of course, pacing round the room trying to absorb what I'm revising. XD

IT SURE IS!
Well, months ago, we found out that there was a monkey in our school. He ... roams around our school. I first saw that monkey outside the science lab when Mr Teo went chasing after it. AMUSING, EH!?? Then weeks ago I saw it in the field. OH! It's the day when we went to eat at Subway! Yep! Then I was talking about how it'll pop up suddenly or shit on our heads while its up on the trees and stuff.

No really, this is what happens when your school looks like a forest.

So apparently this girl got chased by the monkey. Yeah... IMAGINE THAT. In your uniform, running from a monkey, outside the school. OKAY!

Ms Tan, our principal made an announcement this morning. It's so amusing how everything is said and stuff. She told us that the AVA was contacted and they gave some advice. (She told us all these between chuckles)

----ripped off alessa----
1) Monkeys like to play bluff, so when they bare their teeth and make themselves seem aggressive but they really are not. But if you run, they give chase!

2) If you have a school bag or an umbrella, swing it!

3) Have a bottle of water with you? Sprinkle!

4) Shout: "GO AWAY"

ROTF!

I just suck at communicating with people, really. I should learn to be more bloody direct. I'm sorry Sherry, Nicole for flaring up at the both of you and being such a bitch, but I really wish I could wash my hands off the project. To clarify, I was just upset that Connie and Krystle isn't included, we could have at least asked because briefing them about the stuff, they'll just say yes to everything. In the end, they don't really contribute much and it's just unfair for us to blame them in the end. And stress isn't why I flared up. Sure, I was pretty tensed up by the project of course, because we have hardly any organisation and next monday we have to pass everything to Alessa to do and complete the video editting. I hate it that the rest of the members don't get to see how everything goes and we're just passing up our final piece of work just like that. I'm just afraid that things might be too late to change everything. I don't know, maybe you're right to say that I'm so pessimistic that I get nothing done but I'd rather not take things for granted. I wish to just wash my hands off it, ya know? But don't give me chances by saying that I flared up because I was stressed. It's a bloody stupid reason, that'll give everyone a reason to scream at everyone.

Anyway. Ms Teow made me sew my belt today. She insisted that I didn't sew my belt, which is true but I told her THRICE that "I am wearing a different belt today" but she kept asking why I didn't sew. I'm like ?!!?. The new belt I was wearing was hardly even loose, honestly. Woah, like all of a sudden I become the rebellious kid. So nevermind, I sewed my belt and made it tighter and she was happy. "See, this is what an IJ girl is. It should be at your waist. Where is your waist? *pokes my waist* There is your waist right? It should be at your waist." And she could tell I wasn't happy and she was like "You are unhappy that I told you to sew your belt right?" UHH. Whatever man. I'll go on as a bloody suffocating rabbit for the rest of the year.

We had IJ News Team today. I got to know a couple more of my juniors but there's a particularly funky one XD She's Elaine and she... sleeps in math class like me, she is pretty giggly like me. XD It's so strange how juniors always think that their seniors have boyfriends. Fatimah (I think that's her name XD) said "I bet you have a boyfriend" O_O eh?! ;___; She's the junior I told you said that I look sweet etc. And it's weird how they've always thought that I was in Sec 4. They said I look Sec 4ish despite my height *coughs*. I don't know, I think it's great talking to my juniors sometimes, they really do brighten my day. XD

Then the instructor came and I don't know. He's a cool dude and all, just a little old and stuff. But he's rather strange too. Half the time he was looking at me, so I was really weirded out, so I decided that I'll just nod my way through and smile awkwardly. O__o; He tried to take a picture of me (and many others too of course. He was just teaching us how to use the camera and the closeups stuff etc) Then I hid. And he was like "Why must all of you hide? I know you, from the start I know you're not a shy person!" I'm like O____O;;; Heh! Didn't help when Ms Low told him that I'm the kind who won't stop laughing when I'm stressed. POO. I was like 1 of the 2 seniors there. The other sec 3 girl doesn't really interact with the juniors. So basically, the juniors are going to think I'm really weird. XD

OH! And I'm the photographer for the National Netball Finals. OMG XD

(Things to do)

I don't think anything is going on right. I haven't been able to focus and I've been getting really stupid headaches and they kill me. I've been pretty upset and everything. I don't know why, ya know.

The bad:
- I've been having nightmares. Vivid, never-ending ones.
- I am not exactly doing very well in my classes
- Exams start in 2 weeks, and I'm not prepared
- Japan trip, I doubt I can even get selected because my portfolio sucks so bad. I reckon that Valerie or Chere or Zee is getting it. It's not that I lack the self-confidence, but it is true that my portfolio lacks alot more than what is minimally expected of an AEP girl.
- I've been seeing Ms Yap alot on the way to school, the surge of fear reminds me of everything once more.
- I get more and more hurt by the thought that Ms Teow hates me. Not that I needed her to like me, but she makes me feel as if I'm useless. I really hate her you know that? I don't even know how a teacher can make me feel so useless.
- IPW is still driving me crazy even though the conflicts are "resolved" I feel so worried about everything
- I'm suspicious about something and that may be the very thing that's going to destroy me all over again
- I haven't been able to talk to rellie, ally, chum, yue lately
- Had been binging alot... but nevermind
- It's just that the current committee in CCA seem to really hate me now. Just me, if anything. They seem to be pissed that I pointed out problems with our system in IJ News Team. That it is very messed up. They don't like that. Sure, I understand that, but I don't know why they want to be so bitter about it.

The good:
- I'm glad teachers at CCA trust me, though they seem quite shaky about it...
- I've been sleeping everyday for this week though it may just be 1 hour
- I caught up in class (know what's going on)
- I passed PFT and I think i can get a silver
- HAHA! Pea host
- I've been smiling and laughing more in school O-o Heh! Ms Low said that it's supposed to be MY indication of stress but ... nevermind!
- I am getting a new phone

I'm not continuing the list, but I just want to say that I'm happy, just a little stressed sometimes. :D

I got my new phone!

I haven't really figured how to send a full resolution picture to the net through the M1 MMS personal album thing yet, cos the full resolution is actually 1280px by 960px XD so I used a lower quality for 640 by 480 but since the picture is of me, I'm not showing it! :D

Wheee I love the phone, it's quite boring right now cos I haven't downloaded any cool games and ringtones but anyway anyhow!
http://www.siemens-mobile.com/sf65





The pics are like 5kb when I put it on MMS sending thing =| So naturally they kinda suck. I'm still trying to figure my way through. I'm still pretty happy about the 640 by 480 pic I managed to send through cos the quality is pretty good *GRINS*

I LOVE MY PHONE OMGZ

THEN. Notes. 7 points, 5 minutes - copying from textbook, memorising. No thinking involved.


NOW. NOT notes. Brainstorming. 2 points, 30 minutes. Brain dies but learns better.





MEH!

Well, I like it that I think more and brainstorm more about my work in upper secondary but the transition is sometimes too abrupt for us to take. From 8 years of rote learning. At least it's changing.

(IMPORTANT:: There's this thing I have to say about freedom of speech.)

But my point is -

Though this is my journal, I'm not going to claim it as my ground of freedom of speech. There's still a way of respecting others. Having your own blog, at least to me, doesn't give you an immediate platform to say anything you want. If you believe otherwise, I haven't got anything to say. Keep in mind though that we should learn to respect each other's opinions and the rule of thumb would be to first respect yourself.

This is interesting. I think it does say alot about me

F.I.R is about the only asian band I love and there's every reason for me to. Their new album is filled with songs that reflect alot of the feel in their very first album. I feel that their tracks are rather... similar. In the sense that somehow they sound almost the same. Some tracks that stood out would be Love ^3. I downloaded this from z-degrees.net through dodo's link and since the full album download wasn't available, I downloaded track by track.

CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD ALBUM

Please note that Track 1 is missing though. Enjoy the songs! I am considering buying the album, the tracks are too good.

I didn't go to school today.

I had mild fever but figured I could still go to school but later...

It's like this. Mr Tang said in Biology class that Zinc supplements aids growth. I told my mom so and bugged her to buy me some of these supplements from GNC yesterday. And so she did. And this morning, I took 1 tablet. Well, it tasted horrible. It's supposed to anyway. Anyhow, minutes later, I started feeling very faint and I felt something sour coming up my throat. I rushed to the toilet and there, I puked.

I have entirely no idea what happened. And I am not sure whether it has anything to do with the Zinc. I only know that I puked water and uhh... zinc because it was morning and I hadn't had anything to eat yet (I wasn't supposed to eat anything 1 hour before I take the tablets anyway). Then later I felt woozy. Very very woozy and that taste of the zinc tablet lingered. Me = EUGH. Yeah o_o;... I don't know if I should take the zinc tablets still, I mean, it could be my body rejecting it, but I found it rather strange that it was just minutes after I swallowed it that I puke... so... RAH no idea.

It's so stupid. This just to grow taller cos I'm still a pathetic 4 feet 8.

Whatever the case.

I was saying, my chinese sucks. I was trying to do the chinese compo just now. I mean, REALLY telling a person to write a CHINESE poem into an essay is just mad. My teacher probably never really considered our lack of vocabulary. And as always, I wrote it in english first, so that I can translate it later on. It's such a retarded practice... I'm just hoping that it'll work out for my exams too because it seems to work out for my recent essay assignments.

So I was like thinking of something along the lines of "For my beauty to blind you" and then I couldn't think of an approperiate translation besides "让我的美把你弄瞎" which really means "Let my beauty make you blind". OKAY I TELL YOU MY CHINESE SUCKS.

XD I totally screwed my chemistry practical.

I really need to get rid of my habit of FLAPPING about when nervous (Mr Tang agrees). So I was flapping about the whole of my chemistry practical. First when the teacher asked for my sticker and I thought I misplaced it *flapped*.

Then later, I spent a friggin 30 minutes (I am not kidding) trying to fix that bloody retort stand. I swear it hates me. Well, it was pretty easy until it came to the point when I had to have the delivery tube halfway through the test tube thing. Woah and I "kicked" off the boiling tube and test tube and they flew, but didn't smash *PHEW*. Then my invigilator was just staring at my strangely cos the thing is all the rest of the students have already started heating while I'm still there struggling with the delivery tube.

When I finally got my setup done, I found that I forgot to put my boiling chip so she was looking at me strangely again, then I realised... Uh when she said "Uh, you can start" then I gave her this stupid grin and took a boiling chip to put in. Then she started laughing at me! I hope she gave me a chance cos she said that I could put the boiling chip and then get her. HEH, so I'm hoping... ><

Then the heating went pretty well. So there I was spending a mere 3 minutes and I figured that I got my distillate so I grinned and with my invigilator in front of me, I turned it off. And she was like "You are finishing?" in this really shocked manner. So I'm like "yah..." Then I had to dismantle everything and show her the color of my distillate. The plus point is that I managed to get my clear distillate :D but the bad... *coughs* is that she had to HELP me hold on to my beakers, boiling tube, EVERYTHING except my test tube because it was falling off (and at that point I flapped again). Then she was staring at me strangely after she saw my distillate (which is actually quite a good amount considering I spent such a short time heating). HMPH, then she laughed again. I'm like ;___; POOOO.

So basically I am dead.
1. I don't know if I turned on the bunsen burner the right way.
2. I was moving the bunsen burner back and forth but didn't lift it up, so basically just sliding on the table. I'm not sure if I'm gonna be penalised.
3. I could not dismantle the set-up
4. I spent 40 minutes doing my experiment when I'm given only 20.
5. My boiling and test tubes FLEW.

POO XD It was a crazy experience. No, yining you are not going to screw up another practical TEST.

School has been all zonky. I've been getting home at 8. And so basically, I take a bath and watch TV till 10 and I go to bed. I don't even do my work anymore. It's just this week that I've been sleeping so much. Like from 11pm to 1-ish is pretty early anyway.

(VIDEO EDITING FOR IPW)

*am amused* Mrs Siow told Ms Koh, "Aiyo Ms Koh, watch out for this girl you know! She's insane! So scary! FANATIC!" Me = WHAT?!? Mrs Siow thinks I'm super strange, and I have no idea why! But really, sometimes you can't help but scream at the computer because it's so slow! And basically all the mentors think I'm one insane kid. "Were you... talking to the computer?" and they stare at me strangely. And this other classmate of one of the mentors (I think) was laughing at me just because I said I wanted Milo. She said that I'm... animated. O_o;;; Eh? Hmm... OKAY. Nevermind XD

So after today's video editting Nicole and I took the train from Tampines to City Hall and we just rotted at the station, intentionally missing a million trains and commenting on the fashion sense of the passerbys. *coughschokescoughs* Then we made our 1-hour-long trip home! Our chat was ... insane. I have no idea what we were doing! She says I'm jittery. She said I look like a monkey, a rabbit, a crab, a fish. -.- *coughs*

ANYWAYYY i'm happy! The IPW video is finally done!!! :D

Okay, it's no longer new-new but oh whatever XD
I was really trying to do "semi-artistic" photography, but it didn't turn out too well and I realised that despite owning my digital camera for a year or more, I still haven't figured how to use the manual mode... so... NEVERMIND.

The pictures are kinda crappy cos I didn't like them so much so I didn't bother to photoshop them at all.










:D And besides my phone... you can see what happens to random things on the table when I'm bored.







That's... my brother's choker, weird glass thingies (?), broken stapler, weird metal thing and safety pins and MISC XD wahaha

WHEEEEEEeeee today was exhausting!

PFT 2.4km run
Well, I didn't do especially well, but seriously... improving by 5 minutes since last year just makes me pretty elated even if it isn't the best timing or anything. Strangest thing is, I walked in ALL rounds after the first because I was feeling tight in my chest :( But whatever! I'm happy!

AEP workshop
Right after PFT, we headed for the AEP workshop. Woah, it was hella boring. My group ppl are just plain sad and silent, and I didn't really make much an attempt since it was pretty awkward. It's this designing workshop thing, NAH not my kind. They just repeat everything we're taught anyway but because we "artists" are so free for expression, why should we let these "rules" bind us? Ah nevermind!

MARCHE (omg) and movie
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Ms Low treated us to Marche! Well, it's just me and tandiono, otherwise I doubt she will. She even paid for the taxi fare to get to Heeren. Kinda cool to go to town with a teacher eh? XD Ms Low wanted to go to paragon to buy something, no idea what. So tandiono and I headed off to Cineleisure and we saw alot of people from international schools etc. I figured it's prolly because it's the spring break for the international students in singapore too.

Anyway, we were just a little bored so we decided to go watch a movie. We were trying to decide between Spanglish, Guess Who and The Pacifier until we saw there was Beauty Shop. We haven't any idea what the movie was about but we caught it anyway XD The movie was kinda boring. It's entertaining, yeah, funny and all... full of dirty jokes etc but the plot sucks really bad. XD

Ah whatever! I had so much fun today, besides the AEP workshop thing XD

(BREAK for pictures :D)

My mom's kinda cool... XD She sends me strange smses that you will hardly characterise as motherly of any sort.

Mom: I bought the pig pig one (cellie pouch) for you already and they even give you a piece of cloth specially for cleaning phones! Good eh? HEEHEE!
Me: Haha! So cool!
Mom: Cool? So you think your mommy is cool? hmmm cool! HEEHEE!
Me: Eh! You're really scary! No one would think you're my mom!
Mom: Hmmm.... is that so? What did you hear? You mean they all say that I look like your... meimei?! HEEHEE So proud of you, so proud to be your mommy!

?!?!?!
Woah, my mom's kinda weird eh? She never speaks like that!

Aye. Today, I started to go for Chinese tuition. It was alright, I think it was kinda boring. And it kinda sucks that the class has about 10 people and I'm the only female there. Even the teacher is male. Rah.

I felt obliged to blog, no idea why, but here I am.

I find it immature to go shouting about someone's attitude right in their face. Woah, don't give me another of those freedom of speech shit. But really, what's the point of it? Going after school every day to fight a battle of words. It's just stupid. I don't find pleasure in screaming at people just for the sake of it. I've got far better things to do. I'm not taking sides, but I think someone has to give and take and if you're the "victim", don't let yourself seem like so. Don't get angry or pissed because that's their aim. Don't go wacko because they like laughing at just that. Then again, I'm so out of the picture. I never should have stepped in.

Today... was a pretty insane day.
During chinese I felt like some crazy hamster.
During PE I was so enthuastic to run, I looked insane. Then later I was all restless and hyper.
During Lit I was all pissed with my group because... I don't know. I just couldn't work with them. They are those that just invites people to walk over them. Roll your eyes once and they get so freaked out by you. ?!?! They seem so submissive and weak that it annoys me. Woah, I was just being a total bitch to them.

The rest of the lessons were pretty normal, until AEP came.
AEP, we're supposed to do our compositions for our etchings, but I haven't even drawn anything to start off. I very randomly coined the idea of the body constantly healing itself, it being perservering by nature. Was pretty random. I didn't know where I was going but I needed to start, so I drew a heart. I think I drew the heart pretty well XD wahaha!

Then after that I was totally insane. Went to go sit with Zee and Nic and we're laughing like crazy and I have no idea why. I felt pretty drunk to start off. Too much sugar! So I was just moaning around like some weird ass. Ah so weird stuff happened. Rachel giving birth to a hamster. My red blood cells looking like Jollibean pirates, weird angry blood cells, Jessica being strange, evil water hyacinth. XD No idea what's going on, just laughing like mad like every other AEP lesson!

Then Sarah's parents sent me home, like they've been for the past weeks! <3 I think Sarah's sister, Nadia, is kinda scared of me... O_O;

This entry is dedicated to my Higher chinese CA3 and connie who passed CA3 with me OMG :D

We've not passed any of our higher chinese CAs this year! But we finally did! Woah, we're super over the moon. You must think we're insane! We rock! OMG :D It's all the potatoes' doing! PROMISE TO TAKE NEOPRINTS I TELL YOU, we will like write "WE PASSED!!!" all over! :D OMG *bammboooo*

Okay I'll be brief :D
I screwed my bio practical.
OMG we passed chinese!
Today is everything-day :( *sighs*
OMG we passed chinese!
I love the kinder beuno connie gave me today!
OMG we passed chinese!

Okay! You get the idea ;D

I know... I was supposed to study my chinese, maths, history, biology and practice for literature and english. BUT... ;___; I lack attention and focus SO HERE YOU HAVE IT. Emotion ningy's mouth.


Ugly monkey

Uh whatever

Meh

XDDD WHATEVER

*ignores* What?! Talking to me...!? You... lowly rat XD

I will... think about it...

Screwed up in-your-face smile

And so you see...
Your lips say alot about your emotions too. *bows*

Class dismissed. Remember to do your homework on lipsyncing.
:D

(I've been feeling so random)

I'm over-blogging, but nevermind.

There, it's the piggie cellie pouch my mom got for me, the one she was so excited over!

Here is a call out to any ex-2/1ners! Who is game for late-night mugging at town? If you parents allow you that is... AYE AYE, I'm super serious. Alright, maybe not at town... but maybe somewhere near our homes? Uh causeway point? Our houses? J8? Whatever it is... Studying alone just sucks :(

You know what? I seriously hate coordinate geometry, I really do. I wish we can just stick to crazy trigonometry, that is the only math topic I'll bother practising for on my own. TRIGONOMETRY! :D No one seems to like it though, no idea why. And I kinda hate logarithms too, but they're just fine-ish, not that it matters much. GRAPHS! I like the strangest things, for some reason I really enjoy doing graphs. It just interests me I guess. And what we're doing now for a maths... SHIT. I actually like it, whatever the topic is.

And I really hate digestion. I mean, Mr Tang made us (6 of us who didn't do well for some bloody quiz) tie our legs together with our belts, made us walk about the class (different sites supposedly different organs), blah blah to explain protein digestion. Woah, that's bloody redundant. We learnt that in sec 2! And I hate how he spoils our appetite, oh you have no idea! Chemistry. I think I'm getting the hang of oxidation and reduction and all the ionic equations shit. It's the first time I actually get what Ms Teow talks about in class.

I had some weird "chat" with connie over friendster testimonials last night *coughs* Connie is so weird.

Anyway PAID ACCOUNT ;___; I am seriously considering upgrading my tabulas account to a paid one. After my mid years I'll tell my mom. We aren't spending much on hosting since I got a free reseller from this nice guy anyway. I don't know... I just love tabulas!

Perhaps of no surprise, but...
CHIJTP TRASHED RAFFLES GIRLS SCHOOL IN BOTH C AND B DIVISIONS!
And we clinched 1st place for the 10000000th time in the National Netball tournament. IJTP! IJTP! IJTP!
Woah, the sports school really suck, they can't even beat Ang Mo Kio Secondary!? And being the SPORTS SCHOOL, they only managed a 4th. *scoffs*

But anyway, I was the photographer for the event and I was just running about taking pictures. I must be a bitch, but I couldn't stand this junior who keeps tagging with me, and every picture she took she'll show it to me. And she's always telling me what to do, as if I don't even know how to turn on the camera. Woah, I was so super pissed and I showed her so, she had to back off. She was uber annoying. She doesn't want to take pictures cos "they move so fast! So it becomes blur! CANNOT!" ?!? Anyhow, I hate sports photography, it is so tough to get good pictures.

Ah I'm tired and exhausted now. I took pictures for everything except B division. While that junior was taking for B division, I was with Jana and Victoria trying to cheer the crowd on. Woah, they sit and EAT and don't bother to cheer.

:( Alright I need to go. This is such a sketchy post, I'm super tired.

You are proud of me.
:D I studied. And actually did something constructive!!!
I'm like at connie's house at 2AM :D
Staying over for the night to study with her mwahahaha

Feeling a lil' psychotic.
We were like doing maths sums non-stop and at crazy speeds. We found ourselves competing without realising it. MEH! *throws tomatoes*

I am craving for whisky chocolate. It's... in the refrigerator... and... HMMMMM XD

We actually accomplished SOME things *scoffs*. We did do a couple of maths questions and now we're going on to bloody china history. STUPID KUOMINGTANG-THING and weird little MAOZEDONG and weird SUNZHONGSHAN ;___; ah well, it's tested *struggles*

TODAY DURING RECESS! There was this little girl called Sarah. WOAH she's super adorable, besides the point that she doesn't exactly fancy me. I've never really been great at seducing little girls anyway *coughs* Doesn't matter. BUT HEY! I offered her candy and Ms Shanthi rejected it for her -.- POO

Connie's forcing me to blog. POO

Alright, I'm back from Connie's place and causeway point. Do ignore my previous post, it was pretty insane. We were madly doing maths and it's all that was on our minds, and so we were just pretty psychotic. We went to bed around 3.45am after eating mangoes. Cos connie was unable to take the stress of bloody coordinate geometry XD, so she was laughing at everything - my reaction for everything, my mangoes... strange. XD Then throughout the night before sleeping connie was just scaring me. She kept referring to Shutter, blah blah thingies appearing from under the bed. Woah, but we were so exhausted we had to fall asleep.

Anyway, when we woke up, we had breakfast and just very shortly after, we had lunch. I couldn't finish lunch! I ate a quarter and couldn't go any further. It just seems that whenever I have meals at Connie's, I can never finish them.

Then we went to Causeway point. We INTENDED to study. We decided to take neoprints and then there're a bunch of BLAHS who were stalking and staring at us throughout the time. I guess we may be just a little self-conscious but Today... and yesterday, we had lots of people staring at us non-stop. It's so... uneasy. We were like asking each other, "Do I have anything on my face? Do I look stupid!?"

Anyway, I realised that this was the first time I stayed over at a friend's house :D

You are not proud of me.
I did not study at all.

This is rather ridiculous to say but I couldn't bring myself to study without someone around with me. It's just a pretty empty feeling, and that no one will be there to stop you if you ever want to give up. Perhaps I'm just not much of an independent person. I need someone there to study with me, to tell me that I cannot give up and to laugh with me and mangoes and stuff. Basically to do the serious stuff while having fun. Things get so much more productive and things get done more efficiently that way. It's how I actually survived for the end of years last year.

I really couldn't bring myself to study today! At 3pm I gave up and dragged my sister to Causeway Point, got her some fries and sat at Macdonalds doing some work. I hardly got anywhere, but at least I even started studying! :D My mom thought I was being ridiculous, but come to think of it, it is a good way of even starting to do work. The reason I dislike studying outdoors is because I don't like not having stuff with me, and I want to do research sometimes, but the computer tends to be such a distraction, I get nothing done.

Whatever the case. I lost my chance to go to Japan with AEP. It's some long ago thing. I guess I am pretty upset about it, but there's really no point whining about it. I was the one who didn't go to school because of bloody zinc. I am really wishing that my mom will at least let me go to Thailand to shop, guess it's just this strange urge to take the plane and get a break.

PAID-NESS I wanna get a paid tabbie AND... Flickr account Hmmmm I'll see if my mom allows. She definitely will for tabbie... but hmmm

The spilt coffee had made its stain
upon the rush of glassed struggles.
A vague flash startle, yet the
most imperative poise.
Gruff deliberations wither, again the
collapsing tenacity.

This caliginous night was hardly a chord.

Broken traces of untimely rhythms.
Fighting the bold italics and the
neon glare.

Hardly seduced.

The intersection of endurance and beckoning fatigue
a chaotic clashed alienation.

Ended yet?
She dangles on a string.

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I suck at poetry.
I am supposed to be studying.
Yes I am gonna stay up.

HOPEEEE DANGLESS ONNN A STRINGGGG
(yeah, now you get where that last line from)
I really didn't know how to end it.

Yep, we're doing etching for AEP. It's... so tedious! I took some pics out of boredom! Don't try figure out what I'm drawing, and if you managed to... don't laugh.


Incomplete compositions

Observation drawings (already stylised)

-.- Ms Low told me to draw an army of red blood cells so there you have it. It looks NOTHING like red blood cells. Sarah said they look like mushrooms. Eunice said they look like marshmellows and zee and nic thinks they look like soya beans. -.- WHATEVER!

I know it isn't too clear, but it's so tedious having to score those lines with a bloody needle!

Hmmm besides art... today was a very horrible day.
Firstly, I was late for school. The second time this term.
Secondly, I was super tired since I didn't sleep until 5am (woke up at 6.25am, so I was late).
Thirdly, I slept in ALL classes except Chinese (first session) and art (after school), and of course PE (How do you even sleep!?). Mr Tang caught me sleeping and told me to wash my face blah blah. Ms Teo was looking my way cos I was really just dozing off but she didn't bother to scold me. But seriously, I have no idea what happened during lit. I was completely dozed. And I was sleeping throughout Maths. Mr Teh tried to wake me up, but it didn't quite work out. Honestly, they are all 2-period lessons and technically I slept for at least an hour in each lesson! Hmmm XD And english, I was just all woozy, I couldn't even hold the newspaper right. Woah, never felt so tired!

Alessa is now smacking me.
Alessa: and yining? please sleep like a human tonight
XD heh!

I got a sore throat and flu the day right before the first exam. I am bloody uncomfortable and BLAHish. AND my mom tells me TODAY that mangoes are heaty (what she claims to have caused my sore throat), when I already had TWO, thinking it'll soothe my throat. @&$!*

Dearies (Cownie, wife and ex-wife)! I am going to sleep! I will sleep! Yes, I am gonna take Ms Shanthi's advice and sleep before the exam. It's about to be midnight. I'll just look through somemore notes before going to bed. Honestly, I feel so anxious though there's really no true way of studying for english exams (Ms shanthi shall kill me if she hears this). Good luck to all of you too!

Today I found out how... sunken I looked. I seriously look like a panda. I never used to believe that my nocturnal habits will have any impact of how I look besides the breakouts. But WOAH I seriously look purple, green and pink. That's not nice colors on your face when it's supposed to be natural ;___; It isn't even about vanity! I really look like WOAH POOF!

Aye aye. Alright I better go!

It's at times when you have such ridiculous encounters with guys that you find questioning why you don't have a boyfriend or don't associate with guys much, absurd.

So I was on a bus. A bunch of immature guys, who looks very old actually, was just talking to me. I was standing, waiting to get off. But there they go "Eh! Blue shirt one (it really is a PINAFORE)! KAN GUO LAI (look over)" I do not respond for seconds and they laugh loudly and continued doing so. Then I had to get off, and I was like YAY. But they were like "Ta yao zai zhe li xia che ah! Ni gen ta la! (She is getting off the bus here! You follow her!)" I was horrified, but still went on. Laughing loudly all the way, they stalked me from my bus stop to the lift, where I got in and went up to the 8th floor instead of the 11th, for fear they may know which storey I live. So just as the lift door closes, they wave. I roll my eyes.

Woah that's such a stupid encounter with the male species. No wonder nicole and mae tells me that woodlands is unsafe. -.-

ANYWAY I am ill *grins* that means I'll not go to school tomorrow and hopefully friday too! I didn't think I had such a high temperature till I got home and found my temperature to be 39.4 degree celsius. Yet in school some of them tell me that I don't have a fever XD
Thanks for all the concern dearies!

I had the english exam today. BLEHHHHH. I totally screwed paper 1. I had NO IDEA what to write, so I just crapped. Nicole reckons I was delirious. Honestly, I was so stuck as to what to write I even wrote "I love snow!". HAH! Yay. Then with hardly any surprise, situational writing was about the bloody casino. I got my format all wrong, hopefully I won't be penalised too badly. But honestly, since it's supposed to take the format of a letter to the editor, it's really supposed to be short, so that it will at least look like a letter to the forum page. But my essay was 3 and a half pages long, so I'm kinda dead. On the other hand, my long essay, which I screwed the most was merely 2 pages long.

Comprehension went alright. At least, the summary was alright and I found a sufficient amount of points to ramble. The questions were also relatively easy. *shrugs* I just hope it'll pull my paper 1 mark up. I really want to pass my english ;___;

I ramble alot.

Was talking to ms ratulangi just now. Apparently Alessa told her that I wasn't feeling well but anyway
Her: Do take lots of vitamins!
Me: (talks about my zinc incident *scoffs*)
Her: Then don't take it!
Her: HEY! What's wrong with being short!
Me: Uh! Nothing!! *whistles away*
Her: I am extremely mortified (was it?) and ____(another adjective, forgot)
Her: Kidding!

XD Lol

Then she starts to chase me away to study -.- pssh

Oh well. There's this longing once more. It only just occured to me that I have spent already half a year with 3/4, yet there's still this foreign feel, like sometimes I do not respond when there's mention of 3/4, like this class meant nothing to me. We all need this sense of belonging in the class. I don't know about 2/1 honestly. I was just thinking sometime back that perhaps I don't exactly miss 2/1, I just don't want 3/4. It may come off pretty crude since we're all missing 2/1 so much, yet somehow I feel that in order to push 3/4 away, I need 2/1. Like it's a tool. Yet a part of me doesn't feel that way. A part of me really wishes to cling on to 2/1 and not leave the past, yet I've already left it. I'm in the present. Sometimes I just feel like I'm very much in a delirium, confused and all. I don't know if I'm exactly affected by not having a wonderful class.

People in 3/4 actually think that those who came from 2/1 are strange. At least, Lucille reckons so. We are very vocal with our views etc but unless there's really something to say, we keep very quiet during lessons. Although we are all very academic-conscious, we have so much fun together. Also, though we enjoy company, we are pretty independent individuals.

Most of 3/4, they don't bother to form opinions, they don't voice out, they don't bother about the lessons at all. There is this clique who came from the supposed elite class who are arrogant and self-centered (except delleee). And this other clique who is just super random. And another (really isn't a clique, just bunch of people) that studies and studies. Then another that doesn't go home everyday after school, they go out to study only when it's nearing the exams, they do have fun sometimes, but they are quite redundant in class. Sometimes making the least constructive input, though it does liven classes a bit....

I don't know, I'm feeling sick. My mom's chasing me off. SO POOF I GO

I've been feeling reflective and very blahish, but that's so not the thing for ning@tabulas (or ning@lj for all you eljay losers XD YUEBITCH, CHUMMO, CHEEKA)

I updated my radioblog and added it to tabulas (You eljay whores *scoffs* YUEBITCH, CHUMMO, CHEEKA) which doesn't really fit into the layout, but I'm too lazy to do anything about it anyway. It's kinda boring, I didn't upload many songs not because I was touchy about my bandwidth again, but because I really couldn't find nice songs, even some songs there aren't really great. I just dumped them in. So basically, if you need any files from my radioblog, just give me a nudge. Hehe cos I was feeling bored, *** to all MUST-listens

Stacie Orrico - There's Gotta Be More to Life ***
Stacie Orrico - Stuck
BoA* - (No idea what the song title is)
F.I.R - Love^3
Fefe Dobson - Everything
Avril Lavigne - He Wasn't
Akon - Lonely ***
50 Cent - Candy Shop

The rest are old tracks that I didn't delete (:

I better go sleep now. I really look like a panda.

I went to the library attempting to study but I couldn't stop coughing so it was rather uneasy since it's so bloody quiet there. Well, at least I got 1 bio chapter done. Tried to study Chinese and chemistry but got no where!

So because I'm bored and I refuse to start studying my chinese... I present to you MADNESS :D Anyway, I didn't really wanna slap my face on ;___; it's just that my dad's in the background sleeping... so... XD


Chemistry is bad


WHAT?! I have to learn THAT chapter too?! ;___;


STAR IS GOOD! I was really trying to hide my dad's head... XD You can still see his butt but whatever


CHEEZELS IS TEH SEX


You can see my dad's leg! XD hehe! But hmmm I couldn't resist the cheezels. I had 3 packets. Don't whack me! It isn't my fault my mom bought this large party pack! *drinks 10 glasses of water*

(:

MAN. I couldn't help it. I was just really sick of staring at chinese.
It isn't so good, I don't really like the contrast... *sighs* Nevermind, I've got a PSD, and I haven't submitted it! So all comments welcome!

AND ANOTHER

I've been feeling really troubled over this and that. This really isn't the time ya know, it's my bloody exams that's coming, it shouldn't be all these baggage shit. I wish I could be as indifferent and uncaring as someone, maybe it's then that I won't be so affected by every minor happening. What I really want right now is someone without feelings or judgement to talk to me yet that someone must understand. That's so bloody ridiculous.

Whatever it is...


Click to go to my flickr set: Study Day

I went over to Connie's to study today. Hmmm I won't say we didn't get much done, I reckon we did quite a bit, but I think we had more fun than work done. We... went to chat with horny guys from irc (phony people, duh), made milkshakes, went "suntanning" *coughs* XD Did lotsa stuff. Was fun all the same.