Ning

I stomp around and scream.

ALLY IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO DRIVE SOON!!!
And wtf, she's just a year older than me! *whacks ally*

I think it's kinda strange, they don't even need to learn from licensed schools. Their parents are their teachers. And armed with just a driver's handbook, they take off!

I scream.

I can't imagine myself being able to drive at 16. Just at 16. I'll go ramming people down and all. But heck, I think 18 is alright! But noooo we're gonna get to drive only at 21. -.-

Alright I shall stop ranting.
We have Sec 3 Adventure Camp tomorrow, so I won't be back till Saturday. And actually, till Tuesday cos I have lots of work over the weekend *coughsAEPcoughs*

CHIJ
You scream for your school at any opportunity and
for some strange reason you love your school to
no end. You wear your belt so low that ACS
boys' pants would be considered high (yeah.
oh.. my..god)


Wad girl's school should you be from?
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Hahaha I wonder why. Mind you, it's CHIJ Toa Payoh, not any others XD




But anyway.

CHUMSIES, FLUBBAH I so don't look like an andrea or alexandra OR CALISSA. *whacks* CHUMSIES! I'm gonna be kelsey I tell you. KELSEY KELSEY!

Zee, Nirasha and I plan to take the SATs on June 4th X_X *shrugs* All's gonna be in record even if we score badly, so I guess we have to study hard if we really wanna take it this year. And Yue's gonna tutor me, oh yes she is and because she's a great friend... she can go to collegeconfidential site for 3 days. JUST 3 DAYS. HEH! I need to have self-control, I'm getting addicted just as well.

Anyway, I was trying to make a layout for evanesco.

Ignore the weird border XD I'm not feeling inspired, nor am I in the very mood to code any layouts.

Yes flubbah and chumsay, I know I owe you both a layout -.-

It's 11pm and I've not packed for camp. I'll be gone for 3 days XD You ratties, duckguins and gummies aren't getting your daily dosage of ningness. Poor you xD

AHA! I'm back from the camp. I'm currently very sunburnt, tired but very glad at the same time.

(CUT for adventure camp)

On the whole, I really really enjoyed the camp. I'm glad that I learnt some stuff and I'm really appreciate Benedict, our instructor. He's such a nice funky guy. xD

Am exhausted.

I hate to say I'm stressed out but right now, I very much am. So are all the rest of the AEP people. I don't know, many of us ask ourselves why we even joined AEP to start off with or whether we even had what it takes to fulfill whatever AEP expects of us.

I guess it may not just be AEP but maybe it's just my rather disturbing thoughts and dreams I've been having lately.

See, I had 7 bars of chocolate in just 2 days. 3 bars of KitKat Chunky yesterday. 2 bars of Twirl and 2 bars of KitKat Chunky today. It's not helping, I'm craving for more. So much that Nicole was just staring at me when I told her I had 3 bars yesterday and she just had to give me a few whacks when I told her I needed more. I feel... strange. I really shouldn't be taking it out on chocolates but it was instinctive and I never seemed to care about anything else when I buy the chocolates.

I'm just upset that academics are just punching me everywhere.

(Upsetting reflective CUT for academic worries)

UGH. I really don't want to give a damn anymore. I want to cry.

Ignore me please. I needed to get that out.

This is to keep track of the blend challenges I joined!

---@ Element: Obscure --- 12th March (entry)
---@ CMB: Glamourous --- 31stth March (entry)
---@ I FORGOT WHERE: Eva Longoria --- ??? (entry)
---@ Eowania: Ewing --- 25th March (entry)
---@ Elegia: Touch of Autumn --- April 2nd (entry)

I've been feeling really stressed lately, really really stressed. So much that I eat at least 6 full meals a day. I really shouldn't be taking it out on food I know but I'm really upset and I don't know why.

I've not been making sense in my posts on message boards. I don't really want to read or any.

I'm not making sense now. Oh man screw it. I think I'm going insane. I couldn't walk straight the entire day. And I was talking to myself the entire day. I think I'm going insane. I was humming to myself the whole day. And I ate 6 meals today. I think I'm going insane.

Okay nevermind. I think I'm going insane. You must be freaked out now.

Randomness 1 My eyes are watering non-stop, I have no idea why
Randomness 2 I've very freaked out by people who're nice, you know that?

Anyway, we tried to do our IPW today.

We went to my meimei's kindergarten to do filming. We've got some pics and I shall have the pics speak for themselves cos I'm really not feeling sane.


Them having lessons

Horrible pic I know. That Krystle, Meimei, her friend and yours truly. We were supposed to be saying HUA YU COOL! That was pathetic. My meimei and her friend are bloody hilarious, I couldn't stop laughing and so that was the best pic o-o;

That's me interviewing the head teacher.

MEHHHHH OKAY I GIVE UP. I am in a daze. TATA. I cannot sleep because I had coffee this afternoon. This is very bad.

YES! That's right! A NEW LAYOUT AT TAB <3
And now you see I have a reading list and a movie list. I should have a study list or something, to remind myself that I'm failing all my subjects.

Ah, that's right. I'm having another camp. I doubt this camp will be anything exhausting because most of them seem to be workshops, I have no idea what we'll do there really, because it's only in the evening that we have outdoor activities. And shucks, we're going to sleep in the classrooms. I probably never told you how afraid I was of my own school, but I don't even dare go to the toilet myself, in broad daylight. So there.

No, I've not completed my homework. I can't do my homework on Sunday because we're meeting up to do IPW again because we're on some bloody tight schedule. *coughs* And I won't be back till Saturday, after the camp. So there, looks like I'm not getting any sleep on Sunday.

I went to watch Lemony Snicket's and the Series of Unfortunate Events with my brother just hours ago. We planned to watch Howl's Moving Castle, but I don't know why, we kinda just changed our mind. The show was great, great to the extent that I'd like to watch it again. So I'll probably buy the DVD or watch it again with my friends. I love almost everything there <3

And I'm going to bed because I have to wake up early for the camp tomorrow. Oh. And I've fallen ill. Flu. Meh.

*nods* I'm back from the leadership camp. I initially found it seriously dry but I was rather excited throughout I guess.

<3 Ropes, Trapeze, ABSEILING, Flying Fox

(Break for the camp stuff. It's fun, so you should read XD)

Anyway, I'd like to share something that we got from the camp. It's an extract from Rolling Thunder by Douglas Boyd.

"People have to be responsible for their thoughts, so they have to learn to control them. It may not be easy, but it can be done. First of all, if we don't want to think certain things we don't say them. We don't have to eat everything we see, and we don't have to say everything we think. So we begin by watching our words and speaking with good purpose only. There are times when we must have clear and pure minds with no unwanted thoughts and we have to train and prepare steadily for those times until we are ready. We don't have to say or think what we don't wish to. We have a choice in those things, and we have to realize that and practise using that choice. There is no use of condemning yourself for the thoughts and ideas and dreams that come into your mind; so there's no use arguing with yourself or fighting your thoughts. Just realize that you can think what you choose. You don't have to pay any attention to those unwanted thoughts. If they keep coming into your head, just leave them alone and say, "I don't choose to have such thoughts" and they will soon go away. If you keep a steady determination and stick with that purpose you will know how to use that choice and control your consciousness so unwanted thoughts don't come to you anymore. Then you can experience purification completely and in the right way want no impurities can exist in your mind or body at any time."

That was how I "overcame" my entire depression last year. And now whenever I tell someone in need, I tell them that they can choose how they want to feel because that was how I overcame everything. I guess sometimes I start seeing myself as someone with pretty much a strong personality. But they always tell me that I think it's easy, they always tell me that they cannot do it. I don't know what to tell them anymore.

We met up to do our IPW project today! It was quite fun but half the time I was preoccupied. I couldn't help thinking about how much homework I have. And I'm so bothered by the fact that I've not really done much of AEP homework. It's pretty upsetting to not have done anything at all the entire week. And I'm also very worried about still not being able to skip. The jumping-skipping. I promised Ms Teo to learn how to, but I couldn't find the time. I'm so afraid that she'll judge me. I hate being judged. But what am I to do? It's so upsetting to get so frustrated even over the fact that I can't skip.

Anyhow, Anywho. CLICK HERE to view the pictures that we took while doing IPW. That's supposed to be for my reflection log. But here's more pictures.


Sherry and Connie

CONNIE! XD

Connie, her mouth, nose and camera

Alessa

I like this pic! <3

Planning

Alessa + moi

Okay... nothing else!

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Fe... Iron You scored 30 Mass, 40 Electronegativity, 63 Metal, and 10 Radioactivity!

I don't really need to describe you do I? You're the backbone of any well put together group... communally minded, out going and social, but you don't demand to be the center of attention. Without groups of people like you, human society would crumble. I mean that... don't change. With respect to realtionships, I don't know what to tell ya. I guess I'd recommend a first row transition metal... or if you don't mind being submissive then go for an oxygen... everyone else will wonder how you ended up with one of those drama queens, but you'll probably secretly love it and he/she will bring out colors of you that you didn't know existed.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 34% on Mass You scored higher than 75% on Electroneg You scored higher than 69% on Metal You scored higher than 57% on Radioactivity

Link: The Which Chemical Element Am I Test written by effataigus on Ok Cupid

I really should update my tabulas, eh? I don't know, I like blogging thinking that people actually read it because the rest of the stuff would be on my mind instead anyway. I'm glad you people enjoyed the pics XD pssh I'm so not MUFFY.

I haven't been feeling the sanest for a while, ya know. I totally lost it on Monday.

I didn't sleep on Saturday, on Sunday. So on Monday, I was in a weird trance the entire day. I slept in almost all my classes and yes, teachers kept looking my way the entire lesson because I kept falling asleep. I hate to sleep in classes, really. Then right after lessons I headed to the studio and told Ms Low that I was insane that day. Weird to tell someone that to start off with, so I guess she got pretty convinced that I was in a daze. So yes, there was Frottage, our AEP exhibition.

Japanese students came too. It's quite a fun time with them, the way we tried to communicate with them is just ... weird. And Zee and I... we forgot all our japanese words, not that we know much to start off with. So anyway, I just happened to be the one they remember best because of my name. *coughs* They said that yining (or whatever spelling it is) means SEXY SUPERSTAR IDOL in Japanese. So there. Pssh. They remembered my name, pinched my cheeks like I was 7 and teased me non-stop. They're so fun though, I'm not sure if I can get any pictures from Ms Low, but if I can, I'll probably upload them. OH YES! I got this nice japanese muffin/cake thingy and a Japanese coin! Shhh, himitsu, 秘密!

So during the exhibition, or the entire day rather, I was supposed to be the photographer and I'm mainly supposed to take pictures of the Japanese students but I ended up taking lots of others too anyway. So the entire day I was just running about, even after not sleeping for 2 whole nights.

The minute I got home (around 10pm), I fell straight asleep. Quite disturbing to say, I did not bath. I slept all the way till the next morning.

Today in school, I found myself sleeping in all the classes before recess, but I was incredibly hyper after recess, so much that my chinese teacher thinks I'm insane. She said that she has always thought that I was strange from the first time she had seen me when I was in sec 1. She always felt that I had strange mood swings. HAH! But she said that I'm alot better this year.

Meh. I need to go study for A. maths. Log's fun now that I bother to study and now that I understand what's going on. But, still... *shrugs* my body clock is bloody screwed.

XD I made a timetable of my sleeping habits
Saturday: No sleep or 12 hours from 1am
Sunday: No sleep. AEP work.
Monday:
- Get home by 8pm
- No sleep. Regular chinese tests.
Tuesday:
- Get home by 6pm
- Depends on workload. 2-3 onwards.
Wednesday:
- Get home by 6-7pm
- Depends on workload. 2-3 onwards.
Thursday:
- Get home by 9pm
- Depends on workload. 4-5 onwards or no sleep.
Friday:
- Get home by 6pm
- 12 hours from 2-3am.

Hah! So interesting <3

I'm feeling rather strange. I was just about to go to bed when I reminded myself to blog. Need to keep it a habit XD As I was saying, I was just about to go to bed. Then I told rellie that I was going to school. And she was like "WHAT?! HUH?!" XD Lack of sleep does stuff to my head.

Anyway, I took some pics, I posted them on kawaiiness and DMB, so if you aren't a member then you can't see wahaha! XD Pukkie said that I look like a porn star, that's worth mention! XD

Ahh. I went to school today to pass up my report card. x-x Meh. Glad that daddy could send me, so afterthat, we went to IMM. I love Daiso I tell you. Everything is just $2. It's such a cheapskate place where you can buy presents without going broke XD *winks at connie* ROTF. But I didn't buy any gifts or anything. I bought a couple of stickers to sell at kawaiiness for paypal money because I really want cash that I can spend on the net. So if you have money in your paypal... then it'll be great if you can buy the bid for the stickers! The auction ends Wednesday.

I also noticed something about myself. I'm really a very socialable person. It's only few stuff about me that says that I'm rather anti-social. It comes when I'm with the opposite sex, because I'm just guy-phobic. But that's besides the point. Yes. So I noticed I'm pretty socialable. Put me in a situation and if I am feeling perky (which I really should be most of the times), we'll be friends. I make friends really easily. But about me too, I'm very gullible. You can trick me into anything. ANYTHING. But that's again, besides the point. I'm just going straight to how proud I am about being a socialable thingamagig. Pssh I TOLD YOU LACK OF SLEEP DOES STUFF. There are so many things I noticed changed about me since the start of the year. I'm going to write another profile :D

Anyway, I just talked to rellie over Skype for a whole 3 hours (or a little less). XD but half the time we're meowing, humming and singing anyway, so nevermind XD.

I'm feeling pulp-y and like jelly. It's 4am afterall, so there. XD GOOD NIGHT! I'll go melt on my bed now!

ICE CREAM!


Now now, what's this I'm eating?


There you go


Oooo....

Yes, I've been eating alot of ice cream, just yesterday I finished an entire box of mochi balls. Couldn't help it! This is the chocolate covered vanilla ice-cream fingers, coming 2 per pack from cadbury. It's teh oishii-ness :D Horrible pics but I can't be bothered. It's from my webcam anyway.

I'm waiting for the blogathon to start right now, so that's just a glimpse of me just before blogathon, supposedly perky and all. I've been awake for 10 hours now since I woke up this morning. So we'll have to see how long I last XD And you can see me slowly deteriorate. :D

I am also trying to make a cute site, some member-only adoptions for kawaii mb along with completing my chinese and AEP homework while I participate in the blogathon. Ish meh wondehfool?

I need sleep. I bloody need sleep. Nirasha says I look ... sunken.

But anyway the blogathon's over!


I participated for 9 hours then I went to bed at 5am-ish. Then I woke up at 1pm XD Actually, I woke up at 8am from a bad dream. -.-

I posted this right when I woke up!

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The blogathon was great! I didn't have as much fun as I did the previous two blogathons, but it was great all the same, especially at the very end.

The very end.
When Ally confessed her love for me wahaha!
Ally, never thought you felt that way ;D

But why of course, Mr Black here has long stolen my heart. No space for Ally. XD And then... I became Pukkie's 4th wife. Ally didn't want to marry me cos she was too selfish to share me, too narrow-minded to accept that I'm so loved. SO THERE! XD

And then they were on about me being a pr0n star and all.

Pukkie imitated me ;D. I'm like soooo not seductive next to pukkie. PUKKIE IS TEH SEX. XD

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Below are some chat excrepts. They are... pretty amusing XD
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ningyningning: i dont look seductive
ningyningning: i dont even get attracted to myself. SO THERE XD
ningyningning: ROTF
ALLY:: ;) SUREEEEE

pukamaroo: Most sexy = Ning xD
chicadelame: hahaha
pukamaroo: Lmao xD
chicadelame: snoogie do it XD
pukamaroo: No, you get the “most on and off”
dodo: :-)
dodo: haha
Ningy ning ning: ME?
Ningy ning ning: I’m sexy tooooooo
Ningy ning ning: XD
CHUMMIE: And then, SHE ADMITS
ALLY: CONCEITED

AM VERY PROUD
Look at what I'm nominated for: XD
* Most Sexy (ROTF)
* Most Entertaining (HAH!)
* Most sick-in-the-head/perverted (*coughs*)
* Best Photographer (O___O)
* Most Insane (self-nominated XD No really, look this is coming from the person who thinks she's the sexiest person alive!)

You... can tell I'm not in the right state of mind...

I haven't had a good night's sleep since forever. It's about to be 1am and TODAY I'm promising myself to have good sleep. Mwahaha!

We did printing for AEP yesterday. Just monoprints, they're uber fun though! I didn't go collect any of them that I left in school to dry. They are pretty large and I'd love to scan them! Printing is so fun! We had 3 hours pass us without us noticing. We did quite a couple of prints with different techiniques but Ms Low said that the session was for us to have fun and familiarise ourselves with the printing process etc. I guess she's right, I can't wait to continue printing still, the themes seem pretty interesting.

Connie and I went to Junction8 after school today and we roamed around. We are pretty broke. Connie had $5 and I had $10 (not that it's too much or anything since I needed to buy lots of stationery). We wanted to take neoprints, have lunch and... buy hairbands. *coughs* Turned out that we didn't have enough money, so we pretty reluctantly let go of the idea of taking neoprints. Connie's still upset over it, yes? XD Mwahaha. But we can always take next time! When we feel less broke. Neoprints itself already cost $9, that's $4.50 each. ;___; EUGH, love them but... $$$.

Hmm, so we had lunch. We got stuff from 7-11. I got a potato salad and connie got donuts and mashed potatoes. (YES ALLY I STILL SEE THE CONDOMS BY THE COUNTER, NO KIDDING!) So we ate. And we ate. And we went crazy. I swear the potato 7-11 serves contains alcohol. I couldn't walk straight after that, and kept talking to myself. So! THERE! XD We are all strange people :D

Hmmm it's sports day/track and field meet on Thursday. We will be missing lessons! :D I'm glad I don't have to take pictures for the Track Meet this year, I totally died last year... running about with the stupid camera strangling me. I can't wait to see the cheerleaders though. Actually not that I can't wait, but I'm just curious to see the juniors. We have quite a couple of junior bitches there already, so... it'll be interesting. And... our banner. I'm guessing that green house will get it. I didn't exactly design the blue house banner, I merely drew whatever Natalie told me to, it still looks pretty cool though. I'm just hoping that the painting had gone well. And then, I also wish Blue House best of luck. I'm not really active in my house in secondary school. Back in primary school, I used to be a cheerleader ROTF and I even used to represent the house in some events (they didn't have enough people... and YEAH. Pssh.) . And my house always got first because of the cheering and all. It's pretty exciting to be enthuastic, but we all kinda lost it... I've been in blue house all my life! BLUE!

I love the blue house tee! It's so dark and funky! Only thing is that it's just too large. I have no idea why I bought large, even. It's so baggy, but oh nevermind! The design is so cute! XD I was supposed to design the shirt but I was too lazy! Track meet tomorrow! I wanna run! At least for the Novelty Race! *feels useless* I'm hoping that I can substitude Teresa in the race :D

The Blue house banner, I'm just reminded... looks like 3 IJ girls planning to burn the school building down. I can't draw fire, so there! I wonder how the painting has gone though.

In any case, Blue house is getting 4th once more. It's not me being pessimistic but it's just, we have a total crapped up cheerleading team. I don't know about our runners, I don't think we have very strong ones though. But even so, I am pretty excited about the track meet. No idea why. Maybe I'm high on sugar today.

Ms Teow changed my seats today. Actually... she changed Connie's, Alessa's, Kelly's and mine. I think the whole seating plan is just weird now. I'm sitting next to Meiqi. Connie's sitting next to Sherry. Kelly took my seat and Alessa took Connie's. Basically, what Ms Teow wanted to do was the seperate Me from Connie and Nicole and Alessa from Krystle. I therefore conclude that she doesn't like 2/1 so much, since all of us are from 2/1 XD

I really think that she hates me, really. I don't know why I feel that way, but it's the way she says things to me and the way she behaves and stuff. She just makes me feel that she detests me alot. I don't know if it upsets me, because honestly I don't care whether a teacher hates me or not but I hate it when she gives me the idea that she thinks that I don't give a damn about my academics at all, that I'm this all-play person who doesn't mind failing my subjects, that I'm really no one worth wasting time on. It hurts me when people think that way, I don't know.

But anyway. With the new seatings... we had math. I was paying full attention. I can tell Mr Teh thought it was strange. *faints* I was being this pathetic fool, so I made an attempt to sleep during Math. I just didn't want to prove Mr Teh/Ms Teow right that seperating me from Connie and Nicole will make me focus more. So I pretended to sleep. I'm such a bloody idiot.