Ning

*WEEPS*

This is my last day of freedom @_@ ... school's starting SOON tomorrow/today!!!

Last night I stayed up all night xD It's the last night I can stay up till that late anyway. *mutters*

Rahh... I went out with my mom to J8, did some shopping and she got me a webcam *BWAHAHAHA*. It looks... alright I guess. It's fun playing with it all the same. Me no camwhore. Hmmm then I spoke to Yue and Ally in a conference thingy through Skype. @_@ We didn't talk much, all we can hear is typing and giggling and stuff. Not to forget that I can barely catch the words. Ahhh American accents are evil. Yue's mom's funky XDDD *gets whacked* Then Ally left to fetch her aunt from the airport, so Yue and I were... alone ... doing... nothing. We were just chatting (yeah, that typing one). -.- and I was eavesdropping on Yue's mom *oops* :P

Then Yue did her evil laughter xD *bursts into laughter* GOODNESS, ally you missed that entirely! BWAHAHAHA

Bleh then I had to go back to sleep cos it was 8am and I was drained...

ALLY, JUDE'S BUTT IS MINE! HIS EYES AS WELL. You can have his .. nose or something.

School started. Read evanesco.org... bleh. It's bad.

I got a good chinese teacher. Good biology teacher.

That's all I can think of now. It's a hectic year... considering that it's tearing me into pieces on the first 2 days already. Secondary 3 is mad.

I've been so listless it's kinda funny. When I was bathing, I forgot to wash the shampoo off my head (i wash it twice). So an hour after I walked out, I found my hair all stiff and "waxxed" -.-... I'm such a sad little girl. Whack me.

For the sake of cheering myself up (and for "celebrating" the first day that I don't feel particularly stressed over school)...

PICS OF MY PULLIP! from my webcam, so they have to be small to have the slightest clarity











Ahh... blahh school....

RELLIEEE reply leh!

PMS
Bitchfest

My entries are getting less and less interesting (not that they were ever).

But anyway.


There's rellie's piggie (and half of me). I havne't sent it to her yet. Maybe I'll pass it to her if i ever meet her rather, if I ever lose that 10kg.

(Anyway... Friday. During school)

After school, Mindy (the new girl in class), Meiqi and I went off to J8. We had lunch at KFC then wanted to take neoprints. But we were broke -.-... Yeah, so anyway, then we went to Mindy's house. Mindy's doggie is so adorable!!! *screams* Then we did a pretty unsuccessful model of the Double Helix. It's not working out. We still hardly understand a thing.

Chinese test next Tuesday. The 2nd Tuesday of the schoolyear.

Edit//
Designed this for my file out of sheer boredom. I realised that I still have AEP, English, Chinese, Math and History to do. I'm left just with Sunday. I feel so screwed.

Oh. And erm the text says: Radioactive demented bunni secrets. No idea where I got that from.

Ning will come back home at 6pm or later everyday.
She will not sleep when she comes back.
She will start studying every subject faithfully.
She is not to go to bed before 1am.
She is to wake up at 5am without kicking and screaming.

Yay for resolutions.

I've been sleeping at 1am and waking up at 4am everyday lately. I've been making my mom wake me up at 4. @_@... sorry mommy.

I so rock.

I got a haircut. I've got bangs. I look like so asian and 8-year-old with those bangs. I look like my brother when he was 7. That's ... UGH. No nicole, zee, say it's cute and I'll whack you. OMG this is all my mom's fault. I wanted LONG fringe/bangs, and my mom was just saying how troublesome it is and how messy it's gonna be, so she told the hairdresser to do sometihng short, before I could protest... SNIP. There goes my fringe. I look hideous *sobs*

Ah well. I just read sherry's blog, and I decided to say some things about my new teachers (whether or not I used to have them) Just some. (I basically copied them from sherry hehehe)
Ms Teow::: "No, I'm not telling you which school I came from."
Mr Teh::: "The fan blows and WHOOOOOO *does corny swimming actions across the room* It's faster when you go with the wind, right? WHOOOOOOOO"
Mrs Fam::: "Listen to the silence... Listen to the silence... Listen to the silence. Lord, we thank you for the silence you have given us on this beautiful day. Listen to the silence... *birds chirp noisily outside*"
Ms Nicole Teo::: "Like very gentle like that lah! *tries to act out a gentle way of walking and speaking* AIYAH!!! I KNOW I'M NOT GENTLE LA! But she is described to be gentle. RIGHT???"
Ms Shanthi::: "Stool Test. It was... warm. From the container, you can see that ... well the stool thing had been scrapped off. Apparently it "overflowed". But yes, it's warm."
Mr Tang::: "The virus just crawls onto your cell and sits there. then it SHITS and SHITS and soon explode into a thousand of them."

Erm well. For Higher chinese, we will be going to Yunnan, China. I have to pay $1000+, I don't think I can afford it. If I can't afford it I'll just not go or something. My teacher said that we're going as a cultural trip thing-thing, so if we are unable to appreciate such stuff and scenery, we might as well not go. And for AEP *prays* Ms Low said they might bring *SOME* of us to Japan in June. *sobs* Ms Low's being mean and saying she's not gonna bring me =P

Ah anyway.

*glad*

Yeah... can I scream? I think I ought to... SCHOOL has been lovably annoying. It's just, I really like the feeling of going to school and then studying (oh yes ning must have a screw loose somewhere)... but the workload is tying me down.

But oh nevermind. I'll blog at evanesco =P

THIS ENTRY IS ABOUT HOW AMUSED I WAS AT... MYSELF.

http://www.worldzone.net/games/pikarpg/
http://www.worldzone.net/games/pikaville/

XDDD Those are the pokemon sites I made when I was 10 I believe. It's so... ridiculous and empty. Hmm =|...

Erm please excuse my ... english and... ridiculous musings. But read the About Me section. It's amusing....

Oh yes. Another thing. I noticed that it's SSI used. Server Side includes. This thing like PHP that I was really amused about in the past. Erm, yeah.

Okay off to do more work!

I miss rellie =( Eh rellie! The new number you gave me is like weird lah, cos when I sms the person went "who are you" then I was like "ning, I'm ... looking for ting" And she said it's the wrong number @_@... then how??

School is so blah.

You know, I really dislike the class committee. Firstly, the way they are chosen. My form teacher merely picked random names from the class list and went "Okay, you be the class chairperson, you be the vice-chairperson". Because no one volunteered, no one nominated. It's pretty disheartening. I hate to say this but the class committee is so screwed that I feel that I'm in the worse class ever and that all the inter-class competitions this year, we'll get nothing.

For the Chinese New Year Class Decoration Competition, guess what the committee did. On the whiteboard: Please bring a packet of red packets to school by tomorrow and pass it to ____ and/or ____. They did not discuss with the class about this inter-class competition. They did not BOTHER. And what's more, the way the chairperson talks to teachers is pretty rude.

The whole of this 3 weeks, so many programs, so many things going on. I see no announcements made by the committee themselves besides writing them on the board. I see no discussions at all.

Now we have chocomania to plan. I feel like this committee is going to bring the whole class down. Pretty discouraged. It's like everything is so neglected.

I feel like raising this matter to our form teacher, but now now - who am I to do that? Who am I to complain? Who am I to judge? Do I think I can do a better job? But I'm just not ready to be in a screwed class for 2 years. All this just makes me miss 2/1 so terribly much. ALESSA, how i wish you were still our chairperson.

I need some songs desperately. Quite unfortunately, I can't find them. So if you have them and would like to send them through AIM/MSN, I'll love you to bits n-n

* denotes desperation.

Rich Girl --- Gwen Stefani*
La La --- Ashlee Simpson
Bubble Pop Electric --- Gwen Stefani
The Real thing --- Gwen Stefani

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You must've seen my current obsession with Gwen Stefani's songs. I love her songs. I want that friggin entire album. I still think she's hideous... yes i do.

1. We made a teacher cry yesterday. We are all wonderful students oh yes we are.

2. You know, I feel so much pain seeing that my friends will have to leave... Sonia is going to Australia. Nicole going to New Zealand, Gillian going to Washington.... And prema already left for VJC... I don't know, I went through each of their blogs and I felt tears just welling. Gillian, I really miss your pathetic jokes and going to the language center with you, and your corny giggle. Nicole, though I sit next to you in class right now, I'll still miss you, I find it so hard to see you leave, for you have been with me for 6 months through my really toughtime last year. I miss you all so much. Prema, I didn't see you on Tuesday, I had to go off with Connie, I'm so sorry, I really pray that you're going for Fantasia concert, so we can see each other again, I still miss you, at least you're in Singapore... Sonia I really miss sitting next to you and how we'll hit each other awake everyday, every math lesson. And how fun it was just being your friend. Please don't leave, oh please don't ... =( Why...?

*sighs*....

Hmmm... what is this thing??


Ohh... *mutters* It's the egg-in-vinegar experiment. AGAIN.

heh.
This is my Biology teacher's fault I tell you. I have no idea how many times we did this experiment already, but "HEY LETS JUST DO IT AGAIN!!!" *stares*

Thing is, I think I didn't dilute my vinegar, heh, my egg looks rotten. I'm not sure if I'm even supposed to dilute the vinegar, but oh nevermind. I'll have fun hugging the egg when it's done tomorrow... -.-

Had a dream last night...

Strange dream.
First I was in school, with structure everything of the St Gabriel's Block in my school, but with such an alien feel to it, it doesn't really feel much like school. So I was just loitering along the corridors, then I saw Rellie walking from the St Raphael's Block. It was raining heavily. She was carrying some heavy stuff, and an umbrella. Strangely, I wasn't surprised to see her. But then again, she just walked up to my class, then both of us, we sat somewhere at the backrow (not the last row though). No idea why she was in my class at all.

Our teacher was a strange professor-looking-white-haired-thingy person. He looks creepy, typical evil mad professor from cartoons. He was just rambling on. Rellie and I were just chatting at the back with hushed voices. The conversation was pretty tense yet jokish (what the hell). I don't know, I wanted to tell her about her new cellie number being weird, but didn't.

Then I don't remember what happened. We were in this strange place that we're supposed to take part in a strange competition. Rellie disappeared, but in the dream I always thought she was there, now that I recalled, I don't remember seeing rellie there. Yeah, it was some ballet competition. I have no idea where that came from. So I backed out from the competition. And then I was in this strange video-game-like place - fire, running, bricks, weird monsters.

And poof.

Strange dream.
I woke up today pretty happy and I was like "Yay finally got to talk to rellie" but then I realised it was all a dream... how... disturbing.

Today is a rather screwy day.

*sighs*

I didn't go to school today cos I had bad headaches and mild fever last night. It wasn't all so bad at all. I was alright and stuff but I figured that considering there are 2-3 tests tomorrow, and that I'll probably get home at 8-9 today. And there won't be any time for me to study at all.

So I woke up rot around and tried to do my essay which I clearly didnt' complete last night. But I never got anywhere till 12. I wrote a paragraph, that is. Then I couldn't continue longer, I had to start studying for Chinese and Social Studies, and maybe for Literature. So there I was, studying. Then I started feeling giddy and sick. Great. I didn't think it was much a deal, so I continued doing until my head went so heavy I couldn't focus at all. I thought I could sleep it off. So I had a 30 minute sleep. When I woke up, I was still giddy, except now - I feel like vomitting.

I tried to make myself vomit, thinking I would feel better... But I just couldn't. So I just continued to study chinese. Didn't really work out. So I went to grab something to eat. But it made me want to puke more. I tried again and I did. All water, cos all I had eaten just earlier on was soup. I had a full meal for lunch, if anything. And now after puking, I'm still giddy and weird.

*mutters* Oh nevermind...

I'm avoiding my domain, I know. The spam there is so unsightly. Now I've even got it on my tagboard. I'm seriously pissed but heck, what can I do.

I just realised that the coming weeks will have tests just rolling in like bees desperate to sting an enemy. It's all rather frightening. Cos it's the 5th week of school and tests are already rolling in. While these tests aren't taken into account, they are chances to gauge ourselves and I really wish to know how I stand in my class so I can start making realistic goals. *sighs*

So tomorrow there's a Social Studies Test again. I haven't started studying. Rather, I haven't bothered to MEMORISE stuff in the book. I think I'm learning better in upper secondary cos I'm well, learning - not memorising. I didn't even attempt to memorise the shit in Sri Lanka and I don't think I need to. All I need to do for studying for this test is use my common sense and drill myself to that thinking - or somtehing. I can't explain. Oh whatever.

And now I have more problems.
1. NYAA Leadership Award thing. I want to go for it. Commitment - 6 months, or more (thing is, it's too short a time to complete what I need) It's internationally recognised and it'll help with college applications. It'll be better if I take it this year rather than to take it during my O level year. And I don't know if I wanna stay in Singapore to do the A levels... So... *sighs* I need to inform Mrs Mah about whether I wish to take part in it... and I don't know.
2. JLPT 4. So far, japanese has been looking pretty easy and the kanji is rather easy as well. And I was thinking whether or not to take the Proficiency test... Well, if I do, there another thing to add to college application? I think too much sometimes. But I do enjoy Japanese, and perhaps I do plan to continue taking it throughout this year (despite having to get home at 9 every Thursday).

All these are great. But there - I don't have the time. I can't believe I even considered studying Physics on my own. I'm so friggin' insane.

This coming Saturday morning. AEP camp. All around town. Analysing sculptures? And yeah. And later in the night I'll have to go for Fantasia - Band concert. Raawrrrrr

BTW I need referrals n_n;;;; I want a paid tabulas account! I'll love anyone to bits if you sign up and use "ning" as your referrer.

I'm "such-a-fucked-up-bitch". I know. So just friggin shut your trap. I just have mood swings and I can "all-so-bitchy" when I deem fit, yeah. Happy?

(Cut for stuff 'bout tomorrow's AEP camp and band concert)

Today after school, Nicxy and I didn't wanna go home! We wanted to go study and have lunch at Changi Airport. Heh! But nicole's mom didn't allow, so we just had lunch at school. Then after that we wanted to catch Ms Ratulangi to chitchat, but we were too shy xD Heh so we just sat at my favourite place in school - along the staircase. Then we just had some girltalk. Cos the staircase was like, just outside the staffroom (where we initially wanted to talk to Ms Ratulangi).

Lots of teachers passed us. Nicxy blogged about it, but I shall talk 'bout it too! Hehhehehe. First it was Mrs How-Yip, I think she overheard some of the things we said and she was thinking that we were guilty of something cos we got rather tense when she came. Heh, we're so innocent, right nicole? xD Then it was Ms Teo PS. She asked why we were sitting there, and Nicole was like "err... it's breezy here" XDD heh heh. I think Ms Shanthi heard us "gossiping" too. She was glancing at us with this hmmm-what-are-these-kids-up-to grin (as always, whenever we're caught in an act). Then the next time we saw her minutes later, she was mocking us (and our giggles). She spoke so fast I barely caught it! *cough-girltalk-cough*

Heh, then later we saw Ms Ratulangi and we screamed for her! She... kinda lost her voice O_O"... Yeah, so we erm talked - and she wrote down her responses on a piece of paper. It's great talking to her, in a very light-hearted manner... face-to-face. I miss 2/1. *sighs*

Moo. *blasts Gwen Stefani*

Okay. Self-centered quiz/survey.

1: Ning does not make sense whenever she feels hyper or lacks sleep
2: Ning finds it hard to say no
3: Ning is better off blending than pixeling
4: I usually find it comfortable to talk to Ning
5: Ning is more of a jack-of-all-trades than one who specialises in a specified area
6: I predict that Ning will forget her views on Love and get into a relationship herself by the age of 18.
7: I can never tell what Ning is thinking about unless directly informed about it
8: Ning loves what she does and finds a passion (with varying degrees of course) for any task she is given
9: The way Ning talks to me when I feel a little dejected is like she's trying to counsel me. (OMG NOOO)
10: Ning thinks too much

Yeah. I'm bored. So yeah, for each of them, tell me if you agree or not xD And maybe if you have time in your hands, perhaps elaborate a little. <3 I'm aware that some of the questions may seem like you're "no one to judge", but don't worry about it ;D

Photos from the Band Concert/Yesterday. I have to thank Yeehui for lending me her camera ;D Yeehui! I don't know how to use your camera leh! The flash is weird @_@

Yeah, there's no pics of me cos I look sucky (sorry nat and everyone else who took pics with me!) xDD

(WARNING:: Graphic intensive.
11 pictures in all
Places: Clark Quay, Singapore River, Victoria Concert Hall
People: Val, Sarah, Alessa, Zee, Connie, Nicxy)

Sonia Sri.

Sonia Sri made me cry today. Screw her. Like val and al, I was also saving my tears for Thursday. AHHH *screams*... I just entered 3/7 and I saw Sonia crying. My lips were already shaking and I know I can burst into tears any minute, so I left the classroom soon. Then when I went back in, Valerie and Alessa are crying. WTH. I was just there thinking "I'm not so emotional! I'm not going to cry!". Then minutes later... BLEH.

Sherry says: Aiyo Yining! You look exactly like how you cried last year on the last day of school. Crying and giggling and crying and giggling.

*mutters*

I'm not emotional k!!!
It's Sonia's fault! She started crying first la!

Sonia, I really wish you all the best at Australia. YOU JUST HAD TO GO. I will really miss you! I miss sitting next to you at the front row; sleeping during math and science and everything, poking each other awake, getting poked by Ms Ratulangi for being messy and everything. Oh damn. And screw you, you made me cry.

Strangely, I enjoyed PE today. It was still 10 rounds, as usual - but divided into a more managable 3-2-2-3. And yeah, I enjoyed doing the workouts. Damn. Ning, you're becoming so brainwashed.

In fact, I am brainwashed. Today, all that was on my mind was weights. I'm going mad. Tandiono lost 3kg, and Evelyn lost 6-7kg over the holidays. I'm like WTF?! I lost 2kg in 2 weeks, so I'm supposed to be happy with it *sighs* Then the whole of AEP, I felt so uncomfortable looking at those fashion models because people around me, they're judging them. "OMG, she has a fat tummy!" "OMG, her legs are so gross." "OMG, she looks horrible la!"... and it's all about body image. And I really don't know what to say anymore.

I really hate it when people put themselves under so much pressure. They are already so slim, so perfect. They want to go make themselves go through everything. Everything they put into their mouths becomes a mentally calculated accumulation of calories. I don't like how my friends are behaving. They're making me think like them, and making me really worried.