Ning

I miss 2/1 so much I'm going to cry.

Everyone's writing testimonials on friendster for each other and all of them are so touching. Even when they come from friends not so close to you. AHHH *cries*

I've been on the verge of tears these past few days thinking about the stupid what ifs. I've been assuming that Connie would be in the same class in me. I really hope that many of my classmates would be in the same class. But what if they can't? Ugh. Patricia's 2nd choice class will be 3/4. She chose 3/1 as her first choice, but she isn't certain whether or not she can get in. I don't know... I feel like some total idiot, but I really wish she'll be in 3/4, or 3/7. Whichever class I am.

Patricia
Pat, I'm so sorry for treating you like my punching bag and generally taking advantage of you, ignoring your advice. I had been selfish this year, ignoring you just because I didn't want you to give me so much concern. I'm so sorry. And I really thank you for being such a pillar of support. You were always there when I needed you. Thanks for being a mentor-like friend. You're such a close friend. If I were Harry Potter, you'd be Remus Lupin. If I were Stanhope, you'd be Osbourne. But you're cooler than them both. I miss all your sick jokes. I miss your lameness. I will miss the "Lamers' Tribe" you set up. I will miss correcting your grammar (oops xD). I will miss whacking you all over. I thank you for everything! I remember hugging you the most last friday!!!

Connie
Connie, I'll miss studying with you. I'll miss whacking you. I'll miss your sick jokes. I'll miss you quick typing. I'll miss whacking you. I'll miss whacking you. Did I mention that I'll miss whacking you? I'll miss whacking you. I'll miss the macaroni teachers. I'll miss the hidden sadako in you. I'll miss your sadako-ish greeting for me every morning in school. I will miss quarrelling with you over who's sicker in the mind. I will miss bitching with you. I'll miss everything about you. I'll miss buying milo with you. I'll miss laughing with you whenever YOU get sick in the mind. I'll miss your indifference. I'll miss you so much =( I told you. I have kinda taken for granted that you'll be in the same class as me... because I can't imagine not being able to study together. I will miss complaining about how much we didn't study whenever we don't study together. I will miss singing along with silly pop songs with you. I will miss stupid Jessica Simpson-ness. I'll miss you so much. =(

I'm not going to complete much of the rest, because basically Pat and Connie are my closest friends. The rest as followed...

Nirasha - You silly innocent thing. I miss your hyperactiveness. I'll miss your INNOCENCE. I'll miss your socialable nature. I'll miss your optimism.
Sarah - I'll miss taking 851 with you and bugging you to head over to Northpoint with me because I don't wish to go home. I will miss your quietness too!
Zee - I'll miss playing Minesweepers with you. I'll miss your anime fanatic-ism. I'll miss your talent. I'll miss you sarcastic grin.
Val - I'll miss you telling me to sleep. I'll miss telling you to stop studying. I miss chit-chatting with you.
Gill - I'll miss going to the language center with you (which I've already started missing like ... 6 months ago). I will miss your STUPID JOKES. I'll miss screaming because your jokes are so pathetic. I'll miss laughing whenever you tell me "I crack me up" haha. I'll miss you telling me that I'm a "bumblebee", "zebra" etc because you're just as sick in the mind, looking through uniforms for my bra color. ANOTHER SICK-IN-THE-MIND.


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Well, friendster. Speaking of which, I think I'm really anti-social. I say, I've received like 10 messages from guys the past month asking for my number/msn add. And I never replied. And I never bothered to read them after getting so sick of them. Aren't I anti-social? Even when some girls I don't know add me on friendster, I'll reject it. I feel so... anti-social.

But whatever. I'm keeping myself safe.

Just before I leave the house. I'll say something.

[b]Bye bye, America.[/b]
Rest in Peace

I feel sad for America. And the world. Poor America.

Damn Bush. Damn the world. Damn the 52% of America.

There goes the world for another 4 years. Staring at the chimpanzee for another 4 years. Ongoing war for another 4 years. More shit for another 4 years. More brainless idiots for another 4 years. I'm awaiting yet another terrorist attack. I'm anticipating it. I'm excited about it. I want them to prove the 52% of America totally wrong.

Pardon me. I sound like some psycho. But whatever.

Lets see... I'm sick. Down with stupid flu. Fever. Aching all over. Sneezing, running to the toilet every 5 minutes. Ah well. Flu had been going around the class, and at home too. Not surprised I got it too.

Anyway... Sarah, Connie and I went to centrepoint yesterday. We had pizza (yes, even while I'm ill. I so can take care of myself) Didn't do much besides eat. Connie was high. U_U;;;

I'll be leaving the house soon to go out with connie cos she's bored. xD Hopefully there'll be tickets for Princess Diaries.

I fell sick... then I recovered. Then I fell sick again xD
That's why my mom can never trust me to take care of myself. I always fall sick u-u;;

This time it wasn't so bad. Just fever. xD
Could be because
1. Fatigue from climbing stairs (12 storeys, but many flights of stairs) of 8 flats
2. Running in the rain again
3. Sleeping at 5am and not sleeping at all for the past few days
4. Worry about streaming results
5. Staring too much into the computer.


And those are the 5 things I'll be blogging about. xD

Fatigue from climbing stairs. Well, you see. Michelle (cousin) and I decided to try to work and earn our own money. We don't exactly lack cash, we're just looking for something to do that has... well some cash in return for the satisfaction. So, my uncle (well, her dad) offered us to distribute flyers. And so Michelle approach me 2 nights aho telling me so. I was given the general idea "Distribute flyers in flats, just stash into the letterbox kinda thing. $10 for 500 flyers" and I was like, okay fine I'm on.

Then yesterday, it's time to work. We found out that we don't have to JUST stash into the letterbox. We have to stash the flyers into the gates' thing... well whatever can make the flyer stay there. So yes, it's door-to-door, unit to unit. We have 4000 flyers to give out. And the pay is $40 (but realise, I'm doing with my cousin. So we each get $20). After doing 3 blocks (with each block having 12 storeys and tons of flights of stairs for us to run up and down of), we found ourselves exhausted. We sat down at the void deck to rest. Then I decided to calculate. A flat has about 100 units. We take about half an hour for a flat and we're paid $40 for 4000 flyers. That makes $1 for 100 flyers and that means we get only $1 per block/flat ANDDD that means, $2 per hour. This rate is CRAZY considering that Macdonalds' minimum rate is more than this (running up the stairs, be so drained you can't walk properly, running up and down at least 50 flights of stairs per block). And at Macdonalds, you don't have to do as much as to just GRIN, enter cash and take orders. Damn. So we were like "DAMN, we... I feel CHEATED." Yes Michelle, by your darling daddy. So we called my uncle up in an attempt to explain why we want to give up and return the money. He didn't allow so. He said it's our responsiblity and we have to perservere. And Michelle was mouthing "FUCK" the whole while xD Hilarious, it is. Well, my uncle's a businessman. Talking about perseverance.

We had to continue then. But we went to Macdonalds' fpr lunch first (oh the joy of seeing the rest feeling so relaxed, earning more money than us). And I slept at Macdonalds for like... 15 minutes. Then we took off to complete another 2 blocks. By then I was so drained to the extent that I couldn't walk straight anymore. After those 2 blocks, we had a drink, then we completed another 2 blocks, drink again then completed another. It was dinner time (we started at noon) and we still have at least 2000 flyers left and completed only 8 flats. We decided to head back to Michelle's home. At the bus stop, I had a leg cramp trying to get myself up the seat. *mutters* I don't know if it's a leg cramp, maybe I just pulled a muscle cos it still hurts now and I'm limping all the time. And I guess we just got a work experience... Not the most pleasant. It was worse than any 2.4 run and was worse than our 8km walkathon. And we still have 2000+ flyers left and we have to complete them on Thusday again... (and my uncle told us we could have gotten those 4000 done in 3 hours U_U)

Skip the running in the rain. I've been running in the rain quite a lot these few days, no doubt I got sick.

Well yeah. I've been sleeping at 5am (or not sleeping at all). Michelle wanted to whack me, and she kept saying that she's worried about my sleeping habits for more than 10 times yesterday. She isn't a nag. It's true I shouldn't been sleeping so late considering I'm up all day... Well, I couldn't get to sleep, streaming results. =(

Well Streaming results. Guess I worried for no reason. I got into 3/4 (the class I wanted). Well yeah. =( Bleh. Will talk about it at evanesco.

I'm inspired by Alessa. So Bleh. I need a CCA for next year besides Photography.

Non-IJ/Singaporean reading::: CCAs = Co-Curricular Activities (your kinda clubs, except for us it's required and we get grades for it too).

And so... I'll just cover all 27 like Alessa.

ARC (Automatic Robotics Club)
I quitted it last year because work there is too taxing. I don't like building the robots or anything. I only have the brains to program and really, nothing else. I'm not very creative. And I cannot think out of the box. It's a really good CCA though. Great bonding and everything, but I quitted last year, would be awkward if I join next year. Besides, I can't cope.

Arts Alive! Club
Perhaps I'm pretty keen and it doesn't look really taxing but it's the teachers in charge of that CCA that I have a problem with. Anyway, even without those teachers, I don't think I'll have a good time there either.

Bowling
I can't bowl. Dad says I wash the drain all the time. And that says alot.

Basketball
EErrr... I can't shoot, I can't dribble. I can't do sports.

Guitar Club
I can't play the guitar even after those lessons. I'm such a failure. Oh yes I am.

Chess
WHAT?! Sit down, stare at black and white THINGS? *coughs* No way! I have neither the patience nor the concentration.

Choir
You see, I can't sightread. And then I refuse to open my mouth to sing. And then, I break windows.

CLDDS
I'm actually... -fine- going there as long as there's Mae, Pat and Shun li there still. The bunch of seniors who totally detest me would be gone. But I can't stand the bunch of juniors either. And I can't stand a few people there from the other classes in my level (no, not jana or eunice). But fact is, though I'm supposedly still a member, I've not attended anything after June and that's bad.

Band
Doesn't allow you to have other CCAs. I mean, Connie's in Band but guess what? I don't even have a Grade 1 for anything music. I can't play the piano to save my life. I can't play any basic instrument. But really, if I were ever forced into this CCA, I'll be playing the triangle. *ting*

Girl Guides
I cannot stand uniformity. That's bad, but who cares. No way =P

Gymnastics (artistic/rhythm)
I'm too fat to even seem graceful.

Co-op
I can't forgo my recess when I can actually complete my undone homework xD.

Indian Cultural Society
I can't speak a word in Tamil. And what's more, I'm not Indian.

Dance Ensemble
I'm too fat to do anything =P And the mirrors in the dance studio reflect all my fats. OUCH. xD

News Team
I am in the News Team under the Photography section. I'm happy there.

Library
I can't even shut up. Much less tell others to. And besides, I can't organise anything and I'm afraid of Mrs Tan Aye Leng. Very afraid of her.

Legion of Mary
I'm not Catholic.

Netball
I'd love to but there's this PARTICULAR person there that I detest. And what's more, I can't shoot, I can't play. I can only run like a chicken. I mean, I wouldn't mind Captain's Ball, but BLEHHHHHHH

ODAC
Alessa... really, I don't mind climbing mountains. It's just for the fact that I have no friends there that I wouldn't join ODAC. I love ... the outsides.

Red Cross
I can't even keep myself calm that time when Connie felt giddy. So there.

Sailing
I can't swim, I mean. I don't -mind- it sounds like fun but I don't even know the basics. Sec 3 seems to late to start. And val's injuries scare me.

Swimming
I can't swim.

Tennis
I think I may just end up whacking someone in the face.

Track and Field
NO WAY. I can't run to save my life. And, I never passed my PFT since last year.

Badminton
The shuttlecock hates me. I swear.

ELDDS: Drama
1st choice, I'm not sure if I'll get in, much less fit in. But I'll try.

ELDDS: Debate
Maybe. Except I tremble when I talk (well, exaggerating, but STILL).

So there... I can't decide.

I'm insanely bored.

Expression 3 is a rocking program bwahaha.
Yes Rellie, I haven't forgotten to send it in a CD for you la =P




*yawns*

Who's sick of my plants already? xD
I've still got another for the DMB Yearbook fansigns section =P


To those wondering about the DMB Yearbook...
Yes I'm already done with everything. No I haven't uploaded anything. Yes I'm waiting for Faith to complete the filmstrip photos thingy so I can add it in before uploading. Yes it will be coming out before December.

I actually can't wait for the DMB Blogathon and Secret Santa... The previous Blogathon was wonderful and I guess everyone had a wonderful time. And whenever I think of the DMB Blogathon, I will think: That'll show you, you mad freakoid. Gee, we can -actually- make new friends on DMB and not stay in our little cliques of little egoistical girls. Surprise surprise. Secret Santa would be fun too. I guess lots of newbies missed out all the fun.

Anyway, I think my brother is a bimbo. He's a sad little thing.

What the heck have I been doing during the holidays? Let me give a brief account *grins widely*

Out-of-house days
12am - 5am: On the Net
5am - 10am: Sleeping
10am - 6pm: Out of house, towning, whatever
6pm - 12am: On the net, Watching TV

Stay Home days
12am - 5am: On the Net
5am - 2pm: Sleeping
2pm - 12am: Rotting, On the net, Watching TV

I have a boring holiday.
And *mutters* Being out of the house so often is really tiring
Monday: Town with Zeeyenn
Tuesday: Rotting at home
Wednesday: Town with Tandiono, Prem, Sarah, Nirasha
Thursday: Connie's House watching movies
Friday: Supposed to go to school with Patricia. I'm terribly sorry, pat! J8 with Tandiono and SzeYenn. Watched Incredibles.
Saturday: Causeway Point... Alone
Sunday: Rotting at home

Today: Airport, Mommy just came back from Australia
Tomorrow: Towning, celebrating Prem's Birthday

And on the 24th... Ivan will have to get his PSLE results thing. That stupid thing doesn't give a damn. His sister is worrying for his future.

I'll just blog quickly before I go to sleep. Yes, before 2am. LyKe Oh Em Gee!

Went to celebrate Prema's Birthday.
Zee and I signed up for DA Japanese Course before heading down town to meet the bunch of them. After meeting all of them, we headed to Sakae Sushi. U___U;; I wasn't part of this, I was innocently eating my sushi while Alessa and some of them were playing peek-a-boo with a little boy across the seat. Then we went to Wisma Atria's Coffee Club Express (xD The same place where prem and I were oogling at the hot Victoria guy) and we sat at the same seat too.

Alright, then we saw Tandiono's friend, Elmo (No, duh he isn't called Elmo -__-). Elmo was with his girlfriend *mutters* A stupid Sec 4 AEP Nygh bimbo who thinks she's gorgeous. And she goes like "Oh my god, I love art books. *she turns to Tandiono* Hey, you don't like art books?! But you're in AEP!! *she turns to her boyfriend* You know, like, well, the artists, ya know, they -pointilise- and it's like... dots and stuff? Ah, I love Picasso so much, ya know?" Well, I don't think I'll give much a story before Tandiono kills me. You see, they don't like each other and she looks like a total bitch too. So they were in the bikini shop and Elmo went in too. And we're like joking about her. Nicole said something something something art book something Oh my god!!! A4 size Picasso print, GLOSSY!!! and we all burst into laughter. I think we just had too much caffeine.

Then I can't remember what happened, but Nicole was pointing at that girl, and we started laughing. And she turned and saw Nicole pointing at her O_O;;; and Nicole was like "OMG" and she started to do the "pointish dance", ya know the "Night Fever" thing? Dancing, pointing everywhere, pretending she had been dancing all along. We looked like total fulls laughing so much. We almost vomitted laughing. Blah blah blah, then we just slacked around.

Then we went to Topshop etc to try on clothes. And they are not clothes-clothes. We intentionally made the worst combinations. Nicole looked like a gypsy, Prema looked like a cowgirl gone wrong and I look like some... preppy Jap girl. It was hilarious, we didn't fit in any of course, and didn't buy anything. The salespersons glared at us cos we were making so much noise @__@ sorry! Well yea.

Then we headed to the kiddycorner at Taka in a desperate attempt to find somewhere to sit. Well, we sat and started talking about well, life and all. Some were painful love stories, rather most were. It's more like a supportive conversation, heart-to-heart talk. It was a great conversation. I see Tandiono enjoyed it alot ;D She says it had been long since she felt pure joy. xD

After that, most had to leave. We seperated. Prem, Nicole, Gillian, Sonia and I went to get dinner and we headed home.

This was the time I felt the tired-est after town, I'm very much in a daze. xD I looked so drained through the day, and wasn't making sense. I called elevators evalators U_U;;;

I feel like I've neglected the rest of my friends just by towning so much. I miss talking to Yue, Rellie, Connie, Sarah, Pat and Nirasha already. I'm real sorry, guys =\

(Apologies to my friends: Pat, Connie, Yue, Rellie, Sarah, Nirasha)

Went to town again today.

Met Zee at Bishan MRT cos it was raining so she was a little late. Then we went to Dhoby Ghaut, Plaza Singapura. We went to Spotlight searching for Iron-on Transfer paper, planning to share, but they turned out too expensive *mutters* Then we went to get Sugarcane juice! Zee almost vomitted when she tried the one that has Sour Plum added. I love that! =P

Then we headed to Coffee Club Express at Wisma (again). You see, it just so happens that the most interesting things happen at Coffee Club Express. Today was probably not an exception at all. So we sat there... and prankcalled lots of guys. I won't name them, but it's obvious enough =P We initially wanted to have a variation. But we settled on this "Good afternoon sir, I am Samantha Lim from Singapore Youth Council. Do you have a few minutes to spare so you can answer a few simple questions for our survey?" and blah blah blah "Do you have a girlfriend? (or a boyfriend --- gay xD) Do you make out with your girlfriend/boyfriend in public? What do you think of couples who make out with their partners in public? Have you ever gone physical with your girlfriend/boyfriend? What are you views on pre-marital sex?"

Alessa and Nicole did them beautifully, and very professionally too. Unfortunately for me, my only try - the guy hung up on me before I could ask the questions. Well, we got some really nice answers. For one, we called a gay (the caller, Nicole didn't know at first), and Nicole asked whether he had a girlfriend and he said no. And from then on, we figured that we should ask whether the guys have a boyfriend either. So the next call, the guy said "Girlfriend? Not yet. Boyfriend? HELL NO!!!" xD Hmmm another one about the Pre-marital sex thing, he said "I am a good Catholic." xD It just came out so cute and innocent =P. Another one we called, he was overseas O_O. And another about "have you ever gone physical with your partner" thing, a guy said "Maybe". *bangs head* WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE GUYS.

Anyway, we also asked for their Name, Age and School (though we already know), we just wanted to verify if they are truthful/gullible. The guys from better schools, Chinese High and Raffles Institution are so fucking gullible. u___u;;

Anyway Zee, YOU ROCK the heck!, thanks for the tee (will wash and return it to you asap) and accompanying me =P No kinokuniya!!!

MEhhhhh

I think I'm anti-social. Wait - I am certain I'm anti-social.

1. Every since something, I refused to know any new guys. And I can never talk to them unless they initiate a conversation (which will eventually die down)
2. I now know a few guys, but I just refuse to talk to them
3. A few Cyndi Wang fans added me on MSN and I responded "Do I know you?... because I don't happen to be a Cyndi Wang fan. And may I know why you added me?" and they say I don't know them. And I respond "So why did you add me?" and they responded "I added the wrong person... I think... sorry." Is ning so scary? xD
4. Okay... a million people here and there added me on friendster, added me on MSN and messaged me on Friendster trying to get to know me? (typical to any friendster user) but I never replied to any of them... ;___;
5. This guy from Brunei added me on MSN and I was very hostile cos he sounded so stupid.

And I've been really wary lately o_O;; I jump at everything. And when people I don't know tell me something, I say "Why should I trust you?"... and I scare them away as well.

This is very bad! Ning is anti-social!!!

This is another know-more-about-ningy post. Let's just call this NINGSCOVERY from now on.

Alright. So... Ningscovery #2
I am a soloist.

I like doing things by myself. While I find it tough to work in a team, I do enjoy times working in a team and I can work in a team. It's bad, I know. I find it really much easier to work on my own. Being a team member, I feel obliged to see everything through to make sure everyone feels comfortable with their assignments, that everyone does a good job, and that everything in a project links, flows and goes smoothly - even when I'm not the assigned leader. It's bad. Very bad. You know, everything sounds good and fine for now, but there's this self-consciousness there. I'm afraid the team members will be displeased because I'm acting like the leader.

I'm not entirely a perfectionist. I'm just a little picky, and I think I'm pretty much a practical person. If I have to get something major done quickly, I'll summarise the sections, but make sure I included everything essential.

And I love projects. Someone, hate me for this. But I just love projects. Love projects so much, it hurts. I like doing lotsa things at once. I love organising things. I feel incomplete if I'm in a group, and doing only a portion of the things. I want to ensure that everything is effectively linked, and as a whole, would look presentable and uniform. Most importantly, I want a project to like whole, whatever that truly means. And this is very bad.

Don't get me wrong, I never doubted my friends'/teammates' ability to produce a good work or anything. But I can't explain how I should put this. I find that individual work gives one more freedom, but naturally less ideas, less many things. And alone, I can never produce a project/an assignment as amazing as what a group effort is able to.

It's just, my self-consciousness is very apparent when I'm with my friends and people, when I'm doing work etc. It makes me very uncomfortable working with a team.

*sighs* This just contributes to my anti-socialness thingy thing. Me = Social nut.