Ning

I screwed my English Exam up.

I totally regret not sleeping that night. I was half-asleep throughout my Long Essay and Summary. I wasted so much time. I didn't complete both my writing papers. I was in this very drunk state when writing my Long Essay. Now, I can't even remember what I wrote, or if I even written. So that's 30 marks gone. I'm hella screwed.

I'm heading to Connie's house later on to study @___@ *cries* I haven't been able to study without her at all. I stayed back in school to study but I just stare at the stupid book reading blindly. It's only when I have someone close to me, talking to me that I can focus. Damn, I'm weird.

Anyway... I love S-Cool. Not school. S-cool.

Also, I cleared up many people on my MSN list, it's already at it's limit. It looks so cluttered, it makes me feel like banging my head. So, if I don't talk to you often, you're most probably deleted. NOT BLOCKED.

ANDDDDDDD I changed my Windows Blinds Skin upon ally's recommendation! *points below* Looks so spiffy



Yue! Good luck for your math tournament and remember what I toldya!! *pokes you* xD

Ripped off chica who ripped off rellie

1. What was your first impression of me?
2. What is your impression of me now?

Please answer as truthfully as you can. I won't get offended. I'll reply to your comment with my impression of you.

ning's lazy to think of replies atm. I'll do so soon =D

Poo @__@;; Headache... *ish very tired*

You know, I really shouldn't be addicted to this song. White Houses. oh white houses. About a girl losing her virginity a.k.a having sex for the first time. And the whole song, it's like she's happy that she finally had sex, yet she's convinced she's still innocent. u-u;;; Well *mumbles* at least the lyrics weren't too, erm, graphic =|

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Well, if anyone wants the song, just poke me on MSN, AIM or ICQ. Yes, it's "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton. It's a wonderful song. Even the sex is... subtle.

Anyway, I promised myself to blog about it. From now on, Connie's sole goal in life is to remain single yet have lots of sex. w00t. Don't ask, really. I have no idea where Connie got that. After that, she said it's rather sad that sex isn't readily available when you need it. *mumbles* She had been talking alot about sex lately. Like, when we decided to have icecream, with strawberry syrup thing. *looks around and faints* Strawberries and Cream Condom LOL!

And *mumbles* We have macaroni study mascots. One for each subject. Each with a really sad face and er... a chipped off head. At specific angles, they look like condoms.

I really shouldn't be talking about sex. Poo.

RELLIE u-u;;; she is sending "Ningie ecards" to yue and ally. Where did she get them? gallery@astrelle That's my photo gallery with quite a bit of stuff. Just occured to me that I haven't plugged it! *plugs plugs plugs*

By the way... I've been saying "Poo", "Aiy", "Haiy" alot lately. Just pardon me. It wears off.

(I was bored -ripped connie off-)

*dances*

Met Chewy at Coffee Bean today, he helped me with math n___n. THANKS!

Then later, I headed off to Connie's house. We had a ... productive session! xD *faints with laughter* We wrote them down because we wanted to remember them when we wanna blog about it xD AND if you don't get them, really... just forget it! It's just our corrupted minds.

WARNING: NC-16

Expansion (algebra)
Ning: I'm really bad with expansion
Connie: You just have to be good with extension *winks*

Mosquito
Ning: It's a mosquito!
Connie: Mosquitoes aren't that large
Ning: Well, it's hairy...
Connie: Oooo haiiirrrryyyyy!!!!

Jessica Simpson
Connie: Can you imagine a girl who can't differentiate tuna from chicken to have sex?! She'll be like "Oooo what's that? A penis or a condom?" and she'll start weighing them

Friendster Testimonials
Connie: I read this friendster testimonial saying "I owe you a testicle"! And this guy has like 90+ testimonials!
Ning: I wonder how his pants hold it all.

Dumb Blondes and Cheerleading
Connie: When I was younger, I watched this show with girls cheerleading! And suddenly, one of them went "OMG my boobs are dropping"

Hemispheres & Cylinders
Connie: *points to math diagram with a hemisphere below a cylinder, stuck together* You know, if you turn this page around, you'll have a penis! A fat one!
Ning: No! It looks like a condom!
Connie: No! A FAT penis!
--- awhile later ---
Connie: Eh! How do I find half the length of the sphere? *draws a slit to show the length*
Ning: errr *starts to explain*
Connie: EH! It's a slit at the end of a penis!!!

Butts
Ning: *points to sentence with word butt in it* This is BORING
Connie: Butt = Boring?! NING, you've progressed!

Book Parody
Ning: What we're doing is like..... "Saturdays with Connie"
Connie: That sounds wrong....

Rolling Patricia
Connie: You know, if Pat was here, she'd be laughing like SHIT!
Ning: Nah, she'd be rolling on the floor
Connie: *pauses* Rolling with who... doing what?!
Ning: Nevermind. Let's prepare a bed.

Very Sharp Graph
Connie: *looks at graph with sharp peak thing* OMG, this graph looks so sharp! *ning bursts into laughter* Like a very sharp nipple or the guy's penis... that had just been sharpened
Ning: *jaw drops* Errrrrrr

Feverish
Ning: Am I feverish?
Connie: *not bothering to feel or even look up* Nooo.... this is jut what happens after you had sex.

Sirius
Connie: How long is Sirius' ... ... ... manhood?
Ning: Well, now, I have to say.... that's... PRIVATE

Mosquito Sex
Connie: *just got bitten all over* You know, I think mosquitoes make good sex partners. They are really good at sucking!

Thighs
Connie: *points to her own left thigh* Oh GOD. Can you imagine if a guy has a penis THIS thick?! OUCH!



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Of course, there's much more, but we'll settle for these for now, in case you... wanna faint.

Geesh. Wanna hear how ning screwed her exams? I'm sure you do xD *makes you listen*

Math
To hell, expansion. Whatever. BUT thanks yue, rellie, connie, zee and sherry for the help.
- I stupidly broke down before the exam.
- So... I couldn't write or think for the first 15 minutes of the exams
- I didn't do at least 4 4-mark questions in the first paper
- I didn't bring my compass. So I couldn't do that 3-mark question.
- I didn't do at least 2 5-mark questions in the second paper

Literature
Stanhope is evil. So is Raleigh. The book is evil. Lets just not study it.
- I wrote 1 paragraph for the second question for my unseen
- I didn't write all that I had planned for my Passage Based
- I didn't complete ANY of the papers. Essay, Passage-Based and Unseen. Yes.
- Stanhope was being a total bitch xD

Science.
Oh the wonders of physics. *rolls eyes*
- I lost at least 22 marks already because I didn't do the questions
- I had the same hallucination I had during the mids. That is... The whole class was running towards me scolding me, saying it's my fault. People I remember distinctively is Alessa, Val, Rachel, Sze Yenn, Melissa, Ms Ratulangi, Patricia, Mabelene.... that's like stupid, because they are such unlikely people =|
- I was asleep for 15 minutes
- In the section where we get to choose to do a question from the given 2. I chose the question 4. And after doing 4a, I went to do 3b. (Question 3 = one of the choices besides 4. And I spent 30 minutes with 3b. I didn't know much about the rest of the questions in question 3, so I couldn't continue doing question 3.

Chinese Compo
我渴望不必再学华文的那一天。 华文啊华文。。。 算是我求你了啦。请你绕了我!! Damn
- I didn't manage to complete both my formal letter and my essay
- I was half asleep for 30 minutes
- I fell asleep for 5 minutes
- I was cursing under my breath
- My evil chinese teacher keeps walking about, i feel so... so... self-concious U_U



You know... to be very very honest. I feel really upset. I wish I could live this year once more now that I'm back to my usual self. I totally lost this year to things bothering me. I'm just upset i let myself do all the strange stuff this year. Looking back now, I totally have no idea what I was thinking.

I was sane and concious when I did those stuff this year. I'm not going to be like katy and blame it on some mental disorder, even if i was told i had it. Because I knew what I was doing then. I knew entirely what I was doing. I just don't remember why and can't make sense of it now. What I did the past months all seemed so silly...

I really shouldn't be thinking about all these during my exams. But my parents just had to pour it all on me during my exam period. So many complications... I guess I'm just not a very family-person. I told my mom that I really wanted my brother to stay in my grandma's place permanently till I get to leave the house. But if he threatens to kill me and throw the chairs at me every fortnight, I doubt I can put up with that. I just don't understand why I never allowed myself to tell myself that I wanted to kill my brother. He can do that to me, why can't I.

*pouts*

You know how strange it is? I slept for 11 hours last night. ELEVEN HOURS. I'm still feeling tired and I have a worse headache than during days I don't sleep at all. Maybe I should just go on not sleeping. Perhaps it's because that sleep just messed my body clock up once more. =P

Got another minor flu *faints* I guess it's because I've been in a-17-degrees room and I walk out every 30 minutes. Outside the room is horribly warm =|

BUT WHATEVER. WHAT MATTERS IS.... MY FINALS ARE OVER

I messed my last 2 papers up AGAIN. But *sighs* You see, I'm not going to get upset over something I didn't put in all my efforts for.

Ohohohoh... My Art Drawing Paper.
Damnit. Guess what we had to draw?! *(^@#&*%$@# A Cut-open tomato (yes yes, draw the details of liquid, yes?) and a brocolli. *mutters* OF ALL THINGS. Well yeah... I didn't do too well for it. Mainly because I was laughing (yes, during an exam) for 1 hour, I didn't have time to continue drawing. Here's how it started.

Ms Low went around. She saw Zee's drawing. Then Zee started giggling slightly, saying "I had to redraw!!" Then awhile later, when Ms Low wasn't around, she stared at her paper and started giggling. Then Nicxy giggled too. Then it triggered my giggle-ness. u-u;; yes yes... So, I started laughing and giggling for the rest of the time. There's a part when Ms Ratulangi came into the studio looking for Ms Low... (by then, i stopped giggling for like, 1 minute) Then she came in and I started giggling all over again, Nicxy also started sniggering a bit. Ms Ratulangi was like "Shhh..." telling me to stop laughing but I couldn't help but laugh more. Gee. Then after that Ms Low came back. Then I still couldn't stop giggling. So she sat in front of me to stop my giggling. It worked for like, 30 seconds, then when she went away I went back to giggling. I just couldn't stop!!! Then after the whole exam, I took the tomato and and a penknife and started making like some jack-o-lantern thing. Then later I threw it into a plastic bag, gathered a few other tomatoes from my friends and squeezed it *grins* And... I threw away that penknife... cos it was stained with tomato juice. Oh the horror.

O_O;;; pretend i never posted anything about my nutty self, really.

I laugh too much when I'm stressed. I cannot stop laughing when I'm stressed. I laugh for no reason when I'm stressed. Poo.

Alright. Today was a crazy day.

I got the same feeling I had the day before when I woke up, thinking that I was late for a test. Both cases are the Science Exam. I wake up thinking I'm late for the Science Exam. I didn't cry this morning. Did last morning for 30 minutes till I figured that the exams were over. Oh well.

Well, today we got back some papers. I talked about them at evanesco.

You see. I was crazy the whole day through till I got home and had time to think for myself. I was in such a weird state of mind, I miscalculated my score for Math Paper 2. With the assumption that I "failed" my math paper, after breaking down, my whole mind went berserk. I kept giggling and laughing for no reason. Yes, no reason. I was trying to keep myself happy. How wonderful.

Yes, laugh and laugh and laugh. Giggle and giggle and giggle. When Ms Ratulangi asked how the Math paper was, I was still in the midst of giggles when I told her I "failed". Some people in class... they learnt to see my failure as not getting an A. "Oh. Yining err... failed? She didn't get an A?" AHHHH nevermind. And I was still laughing and laughing. I wasn't in the right mind. Yes, I was the one laughing, no one possessed me or anything. But I wasn't feeling giggly or laugh-ish. I just felt like going home, yet I just kept giggling. I went crazy today, literally.

Connie, Nirasha and I went to watch "Ouija Board" yesterday. I was freaked out. Freaked, freaked, freaked out. You see, it's all Connie's fault and she's blaming me for being scared U_U;;; She made us watch that movie xD She was like "But... I want to watch a scary movie!". We intended to watch Wimbledon. Blah. So yes, today during class when no one came into class, I was drawing on the whiteboard, some scenes from Ouija Board and pretending to be in a really innocent voice when drawing. What had gotten into me, I have totally no idea.

Then today after school, I went to Connie's parents' office, had lunch there and then we went to Northpoint to watch Wimbledon. It's a good movie *grins* It's a bit short though. And there isn't such a good storyline. What makes it so encapturing is the tension present during the matches. Obviously we're rooting for the protagonist, so there's lots of tension. Well, I still don't think the storyline is very unique or any good. It's a good movie, nevertheless.

Yes, even when hanging around with Connie after school, I was berserk. I asked her dad what "la jiao" (chilli) was when I knew what it is. And I was falling asleep before we had to walk to the station to get to Northpoint. I couldn't even walk properly.

Ning is still in a berserk state. She says meow.

Alright. I'm going crazy.

I'm very drowsy and now i'm not making any sense. I've been getting the worst headaches these 2 days. I'm going crazy. Wake up thinking I have an exam coming up and didn't study for it. I go crazy. Cry myself to a spiltting headache. I'm going crazy. I am crazy. Didn't go to school today because my headaches are killers. I'm not going to sleep however drowsy I am. Sleeping gives me more headaches.

I sound like Stanhope doped with Whisky. Head feels heavy. nevremind. hand me whisky

Sorry for not being online for such a long time. Not just not blogging. I've not even been online. Falling asleep too much. Too exhausted and all to do anything much afterall. Besides, I've been towning too much.

Briefly now.... elaborate ones at evanesco.org
(I noticed that I tried to make my blog entries at eORG more essay-ish, meaning I put more thought to it)
Monday
- Rushed home for a while
- Rushed back to school in time for AEP Open Studio
- Sarah's dad sent me home. THANKS =D (10pm+)
Tuesday
- Netball carnival
- 2/1 champions Overall
- 2/1 champions for cheerleading
- 2/1 4th for banners
- 2/1 4th for netball gameplay
- WE ROCK
- Got pissed with particular people *coughchokecough*
- Our netballers rock
- Went to Joyce's parents' stall for Wonton Mee and Laksa
- Pat had 2 large plates of Wonton Mee and 2 bowls of Laksa (without noodles) -.-;; and she was still hungry
- Fell asleep at Joyce's house. Pat too.
- Mom called and we met up at Parco Bugis for dinner + shopping
- Went home (11pm+)
Wednesday
- 1/4 of the class didn't come. All were tired from the Netball carnival
- Initially planned to go shopping with Nirasha, Connie, Sarah...
- But i was informed last minute that we would be having an AEP fieldtrip
- So we went for the fieldtrip. Made pots. I screwed mine. But whatever.
- The fieldtrip was to Dragon Kiln. or whatever strange place breeding mosquitoes
- Then Val, Tandiono and I went downtown.
- Had dinner at Scotts
- Took Neoprints
- Val + Tandiono went home
- I went to Marina Square to meet mom
- Went home (11pm+)
Thursday
- Math Trail at Changi Airport
- Horridly boring
- We had cheap lunch. Buns that expires the day itself.
- So we bought stuff our own at the airport. I bought Caramel Frap. The rest got Burger King stuffables.
- Went back to school. Announced early dismissal (12pm+)
- Tandiono, Mae, Sonia, Izza & I went downtown again
- Sonia wanted to pierce her ear (despite the many other earholes she already has) So we basically spent 1 hour there thinking whether or not she should pierce it. And waiting for [her] Aldric (sp?).
- Tandiono and I felt uncomfortable with Aldric around. So we went around on our own. They went home.
- Tandiono and I went to Cine to do some window shopping
- Decided to go watch White Chicks
- Had dinner at Yoshinoya
- Went home
Friday (today)
- Cleaning time. Didn't exactly do much
- Got results slip. Horrid.
- Last period... everyone cried
- EVEN CONNIE CRIED. Yes darling connie, I'm so out to tease you. BUT NING WILL SO MISS YOU!!!!
- Sarah cried too. Silly Nirasha doesn't cry... ever.
- My eyes still hurt from the crying
- They said I cried the most u-u;;; I didn't!!!
- Went around hugging everyone
- I think we were the only class with 7/8 of the class crying like mad. The rest of the classes kept peeking in... =|
- Some seniors came in, found that Prem is leaving IJ and started crying too
- Went downtown with Nicole, Tandiono, Val, Evelyn, Gillian and Prem.
- Had Pastamania
- Left because I was too tired

NOTE ::: I will be writing paras for every one that I'll miss the most in 2/1 *grins*. Esp these ppl = Connie, Sarah, Pat, Nirasha, Zee and Val. Tomorrow that is... I really need sleep. I havne't slept well the whole week X_X

I have alot to do. ALOT.

Webstuff
1. DMB Yearbook final organising, uploading
2. Group Blog Layout
3. RaawrNET layout + content
4. 2/1 blog layout
5. Hornby Fanlisting Codes
6. AEP blog layout
7. EvanescoORG content
8. Revive astrelleNET

RL stuff
1. Study for SSAT
2. Revise Sec 2 Math
3. Get tuition / read up on Sec 3 E + A Math
4. Get tuition / read up on Sec 3 Bio + Chem + Physics
5. Revise Sec 2 Geography
6. Read up on Sec 3 Social Studies
7. Make myself go crazy and whacky
8. Read "The Da Vinci Code"
9. Read up on stupid college admission essays shit
10. Brush up my Vocab
11. Buck up for Chinese

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Just WHY the hell am I stressing myself out this way? I have barely started to relax. But anyway....

You see, the thing is, I know I do not have a high chance of going overseas. I don't even exactly feel the desire anymore, it's all 2/1's fault. Haha. While I still wish to go, I'm ready to be rejected. I'm not ready to give up my academics here at all. Even if I can go, I'll have to attend school till next fall before attending Grade 10 there.

I plan to go to 3/4. It's impossible to take triple science considering my results. Even if I score exceptionally well, taking AEP will make taking triple science tough because I'd have to stay back in school once for AEP till 6pm. Thrice per science subject for practical lessons. I don't want to take combined Science and ruin my life. I'm gonna take Double Science... Hopefully I can get into 3/4. Oh yes. I'd have to stay back for CCAs and also Higher Chinese lessons. I regret giving up Malay, since I score well in it. =(

So. If i get into 3/4 next year... I'll be taking: Pure Biology, Pure Chemistry, A. Math, E. Math, English, Pure Literature, Higher Chinese, Express Chinese, Art Elective, Sub Social Studies, Elective History. Well, not too many... And if I can cope, I plan to study Pure Physics and Pure History on my own. And I'll take these 2 subjects outside school in the O-levels as a private candidate.

And so... if I can get into 3/4. I'll have to stay back 2 days for Science Practical assesments, 1 day for Art Elective, 1 day for Higher Chinese and probably 2 days for CCAs. Uhhh... not so bad I guess.

And another thing about 3/4. Besides Nirasha and Patricia (who are evil smartasses who will probably end up in 3/1 or 3/2), alot of my close friends are probably going to get into 3/4. I'm taken into the belief that Connie and Sarah will definitely be in the same class as me. Well, don't shatter my hopes yet.

Streaming results are released November 8th. Curse me.