Ning

More Angst? No idea - me is almost numb of the pain now...
I did some tests at Psychcentral. I found the link at DMB. Well I've got weird results if that even mattered. O_o;;;

Depression test = 79 = Severe Depression
Anxiety Screening test = 48 = Severe Anxiety
Mania Quiz = 44 = Moderate Mania
Eating Disorder Screening = 4 = Probable (bulimia)
Eating Attitude Test = 31 = High Risk (bulimia)
OCD Screening = 26 = High Risk
Psychotherapy needed? = 31 = Probable


I mean - seriously! I doubt the truth in these tests. Severe Anxiety? *chokes* Yes, I do have chest pains and madly thumping heart and trembling limbs but what does that got to do with Anxiety? And the Eating attitude and disorder stuff. *chokes* Well, I do care but bleargh. Stupid tests. *coughs* And me? OCD? I do nothing OCD-ish O_O;;; *cries* Only fear of people dying, roads and stuff and writing repeatedly sometimes. What's their problem. You should take the test though *chokes* I did do some of the stuff, but doing those stuff doesn't mean you're OCD-ish right? And Mania - Mood swings? uhhh right. Furthermore, which idiot can have so many disorders all at a time. And no, i'm not in denial.

Anyway, My little icon there *points to the side* is made by the evilly talented Ska. Oh yes *throws organic poo into Ska's mouth and chokes her*

*yawns* You don't want to know how tired I am today. I slept on the way to school, during Science, Geography, Art, Chinese and Maths. *chokes* And I took 4 Panadol Tablets yet still have headaches. Me is wonderful u-u;;;

Lets see I went to j8 with Sherry. I ponned Malay because I was really tired. I might want to quit. Not because it'll lighten my load but because I want to spend more time on the internet. u-u;;; Yes my dear, kill me. Yeah then later I headed home and I slept on the train almost immediately. When I got home, I found myself asleep in front of the computer. Bleargh, I never thought I'd fall asleep in front of the computer. But yeah, I kinda lost this interest in everything computerish. Yes, kill me again. Then I decided to watch TV and I fell asleep again u-u;;;

Ironically, I slept at 1am. It's considered early.

I didn't go to school today because I felt faint when I woke up, must be the Panadol. u-u;;; I feel like I'm trying to escape. I dunno. I'm just really scared of school. Urgh.


I made 2 avies today. I offered to make free avies at DMB. Up to 5 requests and I got all 5 requests already. I'll start on the other 3 tomorrow.

I suddenly felt the urge to do nothing.

Well, I finished reading Journey's End yesterday. It was - disappointing. I mean, why can't they all die?! Okay, stop staring at me like that. The story is nice though. I wrote to Charmie (penned letter, because we don't get to chat so often now) about Journey's End. LOL I'm so gonna drown her.

uh right. I actually lost appetite today. Very nice. I shall lose weight. Cheers, ning!

(Click to see Harry Potter Quiz Results =P)

I'm fairly happy today.

We had school, uhh as usual. I ended up sleeping in most classes, but - what can I do? (Keep awake, dear yining. Whatever) Then I went straight home. I bought an IJ sweater *grins* It's L and large (indeed). It's just an inch to my pinafore and I think my pinafore is long. *glares* And Nicxy actually thinks it looks cute and not oversized *ponders*

And then I got back home... You have no idea how much happiness it brings me to have my DMB u2u inbox flooded and with lots of tags to read and reply to. It's the only thing that makes me happy, if i can't talk to charmie and Ally on msn that is. Timezones should die.

I bought my box of panadol (30 tablets in a box) 2 days back and now there's only 2/3 left. The box says "Do not take 8 or more tablets a day unless prescribed" and I was thinking... It means that one who takes 8 won't die *pouts* Whatever.

(Hear me ramble about my laziness)

I made 2 more avies for the DMB thing-thing.

I'm not exactly pleased with them, but UGH - nevermind

I made a counter for Dodo's counter at Dodo's New World last night. heh I love it but it doesn't show up good with a green background.

LOL I finally got my mic working today. Then MSN refused to cooperate and let me have audio conversations. So I decided to record my voice and send it over and have my friend send theirs too. That was uhh... lame but really fun when charmie and ally came online.

Ally's voice is scarily cute but really really soft
Charmie's voice is sooo cute yet so mature.
Ningy's voice is sooo freaky and horrid.

I made all of their ears burst when I sent my voice files.

LOL I started talking to Ska first then later Ally came online and she was complaining about her back itching. So I was like, "Tell Prongs to scratch it for you and RECORD IT" and so she did. Then I was like "Why didn't you even say please?! I can do it!" And so she challenged me and so I did and Ally thought it was *chokes* seductive. Then we started quarrelling about accents. Bleargh. I want an american accent u_u;;;; And Ally thinks I have an accent because uhhh, she probably never heard a Singaporean speak. Then here shows me denying that I have an accent and here's another.

Then Charmie came online (FINALLY) and her voice is so cute and matured. But because I am being blackmailed at the moment, I may not put her voice up *pssh* And so I went mad because it's unfair that both of them have such cute voices (and nice accents) bahhhhh. And last of all, Ally sent me THIS!!!

Bah, I don't have much to blog actually, i gotta go.

Anyway, I made this dollie. It's incomplete. I'm too lazy to do it today, so uhhh tomorrow or something.

Base from Angy-chan

I once blogged at evanesco that I didn't see the big deal about birthdays. Now... (tada) I still stand by my uhhh stand but this year, I had the best birthday. Because of the online stuff and stuff. Last year, I don't remember anything about my birthday. No one cared. This year, lotsa people hugged me at school. *feels loved* And then at DMB, this thread made me so happy and blushy *blushes*


I LOVE YOU ALL DMBERS!


I took 7 panadol tablets today = I didn't even realise I took that much. Maybe I should listen to my friends. I just realised that there's only 7 tablets left. And today's exactly a week since I bought my panadol box with 30 tablets. So I had 23 minus 2 (given to friends) tablets in exactly a week. *gulps* At least it isn't a day... *pouts*


On a lighter note, I'm made Mod at DMB for personal and special events forum. I'm so happy! I wanna congratulate Sydney and Erica for becoming mods too! Lalaness


(My Birthday Gifts!)

I've been feeling blinkie-ful o_o;;; Right. I've not redone chica's though she's the first to ask =\ I'm so sorry, I promise I'll do it right after I finish the harry potter game again.

Oh yes, that's me playing Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (PC) because I feel potterful.

1. Why do artsy-techy guy-humans like having goatees?
2. I tried to download 94mb of stuffs from sylvia and just when it almost reached half, my fucking computer went to sleep and signed me off msn. SHEESH
3. I wanna do blends, but i have no inspiration =(
4. Charmie is back to her NORMAL self again. You know you love her!

I don't think I worry too much, honestly. But I need to worry for my friends. Would you rather I end up as a selfish idiot? And now my friends are hurting me by hurting themselves. I've got enough pain to bear. I feel like killing all of them so they can stop suffering. I know I sound horrid now but I really can't comprehend this feeling. I worry for my friends so much and they end up falling still.






I've got Neopwints! We took this last Friday. Bleh, the day after that traumatising, horrible day. Please tell me you know where I am =P

I got Windows Blinds today. Yayness and now my desktop looks rather spiffy. *points to the bottom*

And also... I think my siblings are rather sad and worrying. My 7-year-old brother tells my 12-year-old brother, "I have desires you know." and runs out of the bath everyday saying, "I'm sexy, eh?" Yes, that came from my 7-year-old brother.

And my 12-year-old brother. I guess he's pretty normal. He's just rather horrid. He meets a newbie at Gunbound and fights with the newbie. And it appears the newbie is seriously a newbie. He told the newbie to go to the very bottom. Yes, the very very bottom, meaning you die when you drop. And the newbie says, "What's there" and my brother goes, "Just go" and so the newbie did, and he died. Apparently he didn't think there was a problem with that and he continues playing with my brother and when my horrible brother asked "Having fun?" the newbie replied "Of course!" And so in real life, my brother is sitting in front of the computer laughing his freaking butt off. And the newbie continues playing with him and dying and dying. Some people never learn?

I'm kinda blogging for the sake of doing so. I guess I don't have much to say.

This week was filled with tests. The Science test, it was alright. Today was the chinese one, and I mugged the whole day for that because well, chinese always needs more studying. It didn't turn out too good, I couldn't remember all the idioms and do the cloze passage and stuff. How stupid.

Then today after school we went to the National Stadium to show our support for our school in the National Track and Field Meet. My school didn't do much a good job. But it's so stupid. They got the Singapore Sports School to compete too and I'm like "what the hell, those trackers are from the Sports school, they're like - duh - good, whats the use of the competition now?" Well, I was right, they won in most of the events and they were really good. Instead of running, they looked like they were gliding or flying. It makes me wonder why I'm such an un-atheletic shithead who stays in front of the computer all the time.

Okay..... evanesco is down because my mom didn't pay. BLEH
And so... I got astrelleNET up! Yay! It's a rather bare portfolio, so I'm not publicising it much yet.

I really can't imagine myself talking to someone I can't trust. I have problems trusting people... bleh. I don't mind keeping things to myself if it's going to help.

I'm disturbed because of my results for my chinese test. Remember I said I mugged the whole day and didn't sleep? I studied so hard. I thought I could take the test. I ended up with nothing. I just barely passed the whole test. Ugh.

Anyway, i'm learning korean. It's so fun! I spreaded the "knowledge" and joy to another of my classmate, Sarah. Yayness! Lets all converse in Korean. Here's me saying "How are you" in korean hehe. Korean is so fun to learn. It's much easier than Chinese. Okay, yining, stop talking about chinese and reminding yourself of your chinese results.

Also, it's going to be Singapore's National Day. Yayness. I love Singapore alot. I admit Singapore isn't the best place for everything and anything and that I'd love to go to California to study and stuff but it's this sense of belonging. I usually cry while singing those songs they sing during National Day. Click here to listen to those wonderful songs. And they're not those weird deep military-like songs. They're like pop songs, except with patriotic kinda lyrics =P

Also, I made an avie from my bunny pixel!